emotional mess
I am just over 7 months out of surgery. total i've lost about 90lbs. i was warned that i would be emotional on occassion but i've been a mess lately. I have the worst mood swings. I get so angry over stupid things and pick fights with my boyfriend (who has been wonderful to me before and after surgery). Today he asked me why I'm putting a wedge between us....I had no answer for him. This evening I got so mad at a sporting event because the team i was rooting for lost and i CRIED! over a game!
There have been a lot of things happening in my life and none of them are weight loss related (such as work and school) and I can't control my emotions.
I had this surgery because I wasn't getting a period and I am so afraid of infertility. Lately when I see friends with babies I can't even look at them without getting teary eyed and feeling jealous. Another friend of mine is getting married and I'm jealous. Two of my best friends just bought houses and I'm jealous. Work is slow so my hours have been lacking and my bills are piling up. I worked my ass off to get out of collections and in the meantime was unable to pay my hospital bill (which was a measley 1000 bucks but I didn't have the money to pay it while paying off the other stuff) and now landed back in collections for it. I don't know whether to scream or cry. I feel like doing both. I have done both. I lost my insurance as of January so I can't even go to the doctor to talk about this....I feel so lost.
There have been a lot of things happening in my life and none of them are weight loss related (such as work and school) and I can't control my emotions.
I had this surgery because I wasn't getting a period and I am so afraid of infertility. Lately when I see friends with babies I can't even look at them without getting teary eyed and feeling jealous. Another friend of mine is getting married and I'm jealous. Two of my best friends just bought houses and I'm jealous. Work is slow so my hours have been lacking and my bills are piling up. I worked my ass off to get out of collections and in the meantime was unable to pay my hospital bill (which was a measley 1000 bucks but I didn't have the money to pay it while paying off the other stuff) and now landed back in collections for it. I don't know whether to scream or cry. I feel like doing both. I have done both. I lost my insurance as of January so I can't even go to the doctor to talk about this....I feel so lost.
Hey!
Sounds like you have A LOT going on in your life, so it's totally understandable why you are feeling overwhelmed and emotional. It's ok, you don't have to apologize for your feelings.
Even though it's hard, try not to worry and get angry about the things you can't control. Even though you may be jealous for your friends babies, houses, marriages it's more productive to just be happy for them and then concentrate on yourself. If you do that, good things will come to you.
Have you sat down and put your financial situation on paper? Sometimes it's easier to make a plan like that when everything is all there right in front of you. I like Dave Ramsey's book Total Money Makeover and his ideas on how to pay down debt. My husband and I have slowly been working on that and we have paid off my car 3 years early. Good luck on that, I know how hard and stressful it is.
Sometimes we are the hardest on the people we love the most. Tell your boyfriend you love him and just sit down and talk to him about all of this. He can't be there for you if he doesn't know what's wrong.
Good luck to you, everything will work itself out in time.
~Emily~
Sounds like you have A LOT going on in your life, so it's totally understandable why you are feeling overwhelmed and emotional. It's ok, you don't have to apologize for your feelings.
Even though it's hard, try not to worry and get angry about the things you can't control. Even though you may be jealous for your friends babies, houses, marriages it's more productive to just be happy for them and then concentrate on yourself. If you do that, good things will come to you.
Have you sat down and put your financial situation on paper? Sometimes it's easier to make a plan like that when everything is all there right in front of you. I like Dave Ramsey's book Total Money Makeover and his ideas on how to pay down debt. My husband and I have slowly been working on that and we have paid off my car 3 years early. Good luck on that, I know how hard and stressful it is.
Sometimes we are the hardest on the people we love the most. Tell your boyfriend you love him and just sit down and talk to him about all of this. He can't be there for you if he doesn't know what's wrong.
Good luck to you, everything will work itself out in time.
~Emily~
"Tis better to be hated for who you are than loved for who you are not"
Are you on birth control pills?
My PCP once prescribed for me regular BCP instead of the low dose and at the time I didn't think it made a difference.... yeah right it made me crazy!!! I was excactly like you I would cry watching comercials and I would fight constantly with my bf (now husband). I am not a very emotional person and I couldn't figure out what was happening to me. Just on a whim I stopped taking the bcp and within a week I was my normal self again! I was clear headed I could make good decisions and I literally stopped crying! It was great!
I hope this helps!
My PCP once prescribed for me regular BCP instead of the low dose and at the time I didn't think it made a difference.... yeah right it made me crazy!!! I was excactly like you I would cry watching comercials and I would fight constantly with my bf (now husband). I am not a very emotional person and I couldn't figure out what was happening to me. Just on a whim I stopped taking the bcp and within a week I was my normal self again! I was clear headed I could make good decisions and I literally stopped crying! It was great!
I hope this helps!
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