our minds dont change...
as fast as our bodies do after surgery...
today i was in a public rest room with a friend. now when i was bigger id always hope the handicapped bathroom would be avail cause id always hate squeezing into a normal stall. i still have that mentality when i go into bathrooms and not purposely, just what ive always done out of habit. after we both used the bathroom today my friend asked why i went for the bigger stall. and i had to think for a second, why DID I?
for a second i still had that "bigger" mentality. im getting better when going into clothes stores and stuff lately, but i do have my moments where i am still the old me.
im almost a year out at the end of march. the past years been crazy, lots of adjusting and learning, and developing into a new person (work in progress, isnt it always?).
..i guess what im trying to say is, im still not used to what i see in the mirror, my perception of what i see hasnt caught up to me 100% yet to my brain.
if only our brains worked as fast as the scale does.. would we learn much on the adventure, if it had?
personally i dont think, for me i would have appreciated my journey and everything its taken, if it was all just handed to me..
has any of these thoughts ever crossed anybodys elses mind?
good night everyone.
today i was in a public rest room with a friend. now when i was bigger id always hope the handicapped bathroom would be avail cause id always hate squeezing into a normal stall. i still have that mentality when i go into bathrooms and not purposely, just what ive always done out of habit. after we both used the bathroom today my friend asked why i went for the bigger stall. and i had to think for a second, why DID I?
for a second i still had that "bigger" mentality. im getting better when going into clothes stores and stuff lately, but i do have my moments where i am still the old me.
im almost a year out at the end of march. the past years been crazy, lots of adjusting and learning, and developing into a new person (work in progress, isnt it always?).
..i guess what im trying to say is, im still not used to what i see in the mirror, my perception of what i see hasnt caught up to me 100% yet to my brain.
if only our brains worked as fast as the scale does.. would we learn much on the adventure, if it had?
personally i dont think, for me i would have appreciated my journey and everything its taken, if it was all just handed to me..
has any of these thoughts ever crossed anybodys elses mind?
good night everyone.
But you don’t
Always
Have to hold your head
Higher than your heart
~jack johnson~
awww babes! im not going to lie, i was feeling that way until the past few days. i was gettin really frustrated and angry (and not just wls related BUT i was starting to wonder, am i going thru that phase again that i did at 6months like woah?!)
if theres a light at the end of the tunnel for me there def is for you, you have such a beautiful heart.
<3
*hugs* if you need to talk or vent plz lemme know :)
if theres a light at the end of the tunnel for me there def is for you, you have such a beautiful heart.
<3
*hugs* if you need to talk or vent plz lemme know :)
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