Having a hard emotional few days

I knew the risks involved with this surgery going into in and I still decided to do it.... The past few days I feel like that was a mistake...


I can't focus on or enjoy the success I've had so far which has been a lot. All my focus and though goes towards "am I gonna get a bowl obstruction" "is an internal hernia going to cut off my bowls" it's almost like I've become obsessed with worrying about the negatives. I don't know how to turn it off. Every time I do put it out of my mind I get on OH and read another person having bowel issues and the regret and fear all come back.

I guess maybe I need to talk to my pcp about anxiety medicine.

As I've stated before since surgery I've experienced random sharp pains right around my belly button that last anywhere from a few seconds to a few minutes. On Friday they lasted for an hour so I made an emergency visit to the surgeon who sent me for a CTscan with contrast. By the time the CTscan happened the pains were gone and the CTscan was "perfect" as my surgeon put it.

I'm even more freaked out now because of this.....I wish I could just enjoy the good things.

If the pain continues, I would go back to the doctor and maybe have something more in depth done.  Until then, which I know is hard, just try to enjoy life....we only get one.  I try to live by the mantra of don't worry about things that aren't real.  It's good that you are aware about the risks but don't let that hinder your life.  If it's really getting to be obsessive thinking, I would seek some counseling by a professional...they really do help.  

Good luck!

~Emily~ 

I was really paranoic for the 1th 3 months i honestly thougth i was gonna die. it was awful but then when i started to feel like myself again i acepted my wls and i start to love it. about the pain u have i would call my dr. and let  them know that im in pain. is prolly nothing serious but is better to prevent don`t u think.
good luck.

I've spoke to them on several occassions about it and was sent for a CTscan with contrast last Friday whch came back "perfect." 

Thanks for the encouragemetn!