X post: Why Must I Test It?
For those of u that know me and my story, I lost my weight relatively quickly with a VERY driven no cheating and exercising like mad schedule. For about the last month and a half I've been maintaining at about 163 lbs. I think that I would like to lose another 10 lbs.... But for some reason this has been impossible for me lately. I've still been working out a lot.... with food though, I am struggling. For some reason it seems like I'm testing it. Like seeing how far I can go and how much I can eat things that I'm not necessarily supposed to be eating without gaining weight. I haven't gained but I know that it's definitely possible. I also know that it's not possible to lose with this mentality. I'm trying to find some "deeper meaning" behind why I find it necessary to keep trying to eat things that I don't need to eat. I have issues man. UGH. I'm really happy right now, I've fixed so many things about myself that I used to not like... but the food thing is rearing it's ugly head again. I'm always an extreme person and am still struggling to find this never ending balance that I seem to avoid.
I'm sharing this because I hope that people might have some advice and be able to relate. Also sharing because I don't want to always only share the good things. I want people to see the bad and the ugly too :)
I'm sharing this because I hope that people might have some advice and be able to relate. Also sharing because I don't want to always only share the good things. I want people to see the bad and the ugly too :)
Amanda
"impossible is nothing"
First of all congrat on all your weight loss so far. I have the same problem. I am a food addict and I have to work really hard not to fall off the wagon. Right now I am only 3 months out so I can't really eat much without getting sick, but I know the day will come when I will have to control my eating myself. I do a lot of talking to myself. When I go to get something to eat I ask why am I eating this and if the answer is not to fuel my body then I don't eat it. Another thing that I am fearful of is trying to switch my addiction to something other than food. My personality is an addictive one so I really have to work hard to keep on track.
I hear ya. Why is like there a bday party every weekend in the summer and everyone is walking around with whopping pieces of cake and ice cream and Im sitting in the (skinny) corner eating a piece of fruit. then i have to go lick the icing! ahhh! i know im not supposed to!
temptation is everywhere and I def feel it. Now that i can eat more then I did before it take a lot of willpower to not put things that I used to in my mouth.
I just remind myself: that is fat people's food that makes ME fat and I will not put it on my hips ever again. !!!!
temptation is everywhere and I def feel it. Now that i can eat more then I did before it take a lot of willpower to not put things that I used to in my mouth.
I just remind myself: that is fat people's food that makes ME fat and I will not put it on my hips ever again. !!!!
hi Amanda , i hear ya cuz i can relate so much to what you are saying i have been testing my sleeve too and i have been for over a month now kinda of stuck in one place.i never really imagined how life is going to be after weight surgery but i can tell now it is a struggle and it is a tough one.losing the weight is one thing but dealing with your demons is something else.
i do not have much to say cuz i am on the same boat even though i have not lost all my excess weight and i still have a long way to go and i most probably sabotaging myself .
but u have been really struggling lately and i came to this conclusion
in order to be a success you have to fall out sometimes and you have to learn from there how to pull yourself.there is no way you will always mentain the same state of mind that kept you all this time moving on and losing the weight .we are human beings so we are not perfect .i say forgive yourself when you slip and move on it is hard but you can do it.
also these issues you are talking about we all have ones believe me i have deeeeeeeep issues and because i know it will take alooooooong time to be able to deal with it , i try as much as possible to clean my environment , meaning ; i take out all the crappy food out of my place and so out of my system. the beauty of the wls is that it helps in changing some of your habits so instead of putting yourself in some situations where you know you will be faced with temptations try to program your day away from any temptation , it is hard and i know it
but in my opinion it is not running away from bad food it is kinda of rehabilitation or something getting the bad stuff out of your system.you need that and i need that .we kinda need a quick fix now so that we can carry on what we want to achieve
i also find distracting my mind so helpful.for me i try to avoid the feeling of a screwed up person cuz i am all or nothing person and that is not very helpful when you are trying to find some balance in your life .
i try to find things in my life that makes me happy this somehow seems to help sometimes and i donot know why but i forget about my demons when i am enjoying something
for me i notice that there is a certain pattern of thinking that always drive to food , so track this thinking pattern if you have one try to get out of the house and smell some fresh air come here for support do anything that will break this state of mind that drives to food
and most importantly forgive yourself i am having troubles doing that but you know what if you were a strong enough person to go through surgey and mentain a strict regime to lose the weight then i say you are strong and even much more stronger than ever to be able to mentain and lose more .
hugs n kisses
sarah
i do not have much to say cuz i am on the same boat even though i have not lost all my excess weight and i still have a long way to go and i most probably sabotaging myself .
but u have been really struggling lately and i came to this conclusion
in order to be a success you have to fall out sometimes and you have to learn from there how to pull yourself.there is no way you will always mentain the same state of mind that kept you all this time moving on and losing the weight .we are human beings so we are not perfect .i say forgive yourself when you slip and move on it is hard but you can do it.
also these issues you are talking about we all have ones believe me i have deeeeeeeep issues and because i know it will take alooooooong time to be able to deal with it , i try as much as possible to clean my environment , meaning ; i take out all the crappy food out of my place and so out of my system. the beauty of the wls is that it helps in changing some of your habits so instead of putting yourself in some situations where you know you will be faced with temptations try to program your day away from any temptation , it is hard and i know it
but in my opinion it is not running away from bad food it is kinda of rehabilitation or something getting the bad stuff out of your system.you need that and i need that .we kinda need a quick fix now so that we can carry on what we want to achieve
i also find distracting my mind so helpful.for me i try to avoid the feeling of a screwed up person cuz i am all or nothing person and that is not very helpful when you are trying to find some balance in your life .
i try to find things in my life that makes me happy this somehow seems to help sometimes and i donot know why but i forget about my demons when i am enjoying something
for me i notice that there is a certain pattern of thinking that always drive to food , so track this thinking pattern if you have one try to get out of the house and smell some fresh air come here for support do anything that will break this state of mind that drives to food
and most importantly forgive yourself i am having troubles doing that but you know what if you were a strong enough person to go through surgey and mentain a strict regime to lose the weight then i say you are strong and even much more stronger than ever to be able to mentain and lose more .
hugs n kisses
sarah
i wish i had a good advice to give you!. i'm on the same boat as you. i wanna lose 15 more lbs and its being impossible they don´t wanna leave me! as you i diet, i barely eat i eat aron 800 and 1200 cal a day, i know is bad but i have also try eating small food during the day and it doest work. i work my ass off at the gym and i don´t know what´s happening i hope all of that extra weight is lose sking and goes away with surgery hahahaha.
about eating to test if u gain weight if have to be very careful about that if i eat more than 3 days out of my plan i gain weigh pretty fast. so i try to don´t and its been kindda mental game for me also i freak out if i can´t stick to my plan i think i also need helpl hahaha and yes find a balance is really hard, is like u do everything right or everything wrong
i guess we just have to keep it up and we eventualy lose the weight. and guess is not good to get to serious with that we have come such a long way to get depresed for 15 lbs lol.
good luck! and keep me posted about what ur doing to lose it!
hugs
about eating to test if u gain weight if have to be very careful about that if i eat more than 3 days out of my plan i gain weigh pretty fast. so i try to don´t and its been kindda mental game for me also i freak out if i can´t stick to my plan i think i also need helpl hahaha and yes find a balance is really hard, is like u do everything right or everything wrong
i guess we just have to keep it up and we eventualy lose the weight. and guess is not good to get to serious with that we have come such a long way to get depresed for 15 lbs lol.
good luck! and keep me posted about what ur doing to lose it!
hugs
I'd give yourself more credit - you seem to be doing great. I know I don't have that level of self discipline - I cheat every few days and miss my exercise sometimes and so on.
anyway - I know this may not be real helpful but maybe you should plan in some of these foods that you're craving that you consider "testing the limit". I'm guessing you probably eat perfectly for days, and then boom - you suddenly want a bag of chips, a slice of cheesecake, or whatever. I know it's a slippery slope, but after surgery I feel much more able to grab a very small portion of what I am craving and then set it aside. I pretty much do this everyday, and probably 100-200 calories of what I eat everyday is basically unhealthy stuff, and it might slow my weight loss down but it beats the alternative of overdoing it all at once. sometimes with a certain food I might feel unable to control myself - i just try to avoid it for awhile and it usually goes away.
trust me, I understand what you're feeling. I've lost much of my excess weight, and pretty much I would feel like my world would collapse if I let myself overdo it on unhealthy food, or if that scale ever went up a pound. I guess I'm trying to say that while you may not think you need it, psychologically you may need it for some reason. You probably only need a tiny portion to satisfy that need though, so if you can fight the urges to eat it in extremes, it might be easier then just trying to ban foods that you don't need to eat.
I hope that kind of helped.
anyway - I know this may not be real helpful but maybe you should plan in some of these foods that you're craving that you consider "testing the limit". I'm guessing you probably eat perfectly for days, and then boom - you suddenly want a bag of chips, a slice of cheesecake, or whatever. I know it's a slippery slope, but after surgery I feel much more able to grab a very small portion of what I am craving and then set it aside. I pretty much do this everyday, and probably 100-200 calories of what I eat everyday is basically unhealthy stuff, and it might slow my weight loss down but it beats the alternative of overdoing it all at once. sometimes with a certain food I might feel unable to control myself - i just try to avoid it for awhile and it usually goes away.
trust me, I understand what you're feeling. I've lost much of my excess weight, and pretty much I would feel like my world would collapse if I let myself overdo it on unhealthy food, or if that scale ever went up a pound. I guess I'm trying to say that while you may not think you need it, psychologically you may need it for some reason. You probably only need a tiny portion to satisfy that need though, so if you can fight the urges to eat it in extremes, it might be easier then just trying to ban foods that you don't need to eat.
I hope that kind of helped.
Hey! Thanks that really did help. I'm trying to get better at planning and having a schedule because when I am at work and I plan my food i don't have a problem it's when i get home and have nothing planned that i end up eating things that I shouldn't! I am also going to try to get better at giving myself more credit and I think that if i plan the bad things too, i won't eat as much of it!
Thanks a lot! you have done AMAZING btw :)
Thanks a lot! you have done AMAZING btw :)
Amanda
"impossible is nothing"
Hey!
I'm the queen of food issues, so I totally and completely understand and sympathize. I eat compulstively, esepcially when I have gone a long time without eating. There's just food I can't have in my house because I'll binge on it. It's sad it has to be that way for now but maybe one day I can get a handle on it. I sometimes will test myself too, stupidly with an extra bite of this or that...it's so dumb, I don't know why I do it.
I guess I'm more of a realist when it comes to the long haul of food and my life. I can't look someone in the eye and say "Well, I'm never eating _______ again for as long as I live!" To me, that's not realistic and it's just setting yourself up for failure because you're going to want it even more. For me, I want to grasp and live the concept of moderation...right now, I can't because I go overboard but like I said, I'm working on it everyday and hopefully one day that will come. I figure if I eat well 90% of the time, then I'm perfectly ok to have an extra every now and again...not everyday but just sometimes. I think we've all gotten enough knowledge through our surgery to be able to know what we need to do if we do backslide and put on a few pounds. The biggest thing, I think, is not to beat ourselves up...just hop back on the wagon!
I sympathize though because I can sit here and tell a million people what they should be doing when I struggle so hard myself somedays. Just take it all day by day because we have to do this for the next 80 years!
~Emily~
I'm the queen of food issues, so I totally and completely understand and sympathize. I eat compulstively, esepcially when I have gone a long time without eating. There's just food I can't have in my house because I'll binge on it. It's sad it has to be that way for now but maybe one day I can get a handle on it. I sometimes will test myself too, stupidly with an extra bite of this or that...it's so dumb, I don't know why I do it.
I guess I'm more of a realist when it comes to the long haul of food and my life. I can't look someone in the eye and say "Well, I'm never eating _______ again for as long as I live!" To me, that's not realistic and it's just setting yourself up for failure because you're going to want it even more. For me, I want to grasp and live the concept of moderation...right now, I can't because I go overboard but like I said, I'm working on it everyday and hopefully one day that will come. I figure if I eat well 90% of the time, then I'm perfectly ok to have an extra every now and again...not everyday but just sometimes. I think we've all gotten enough knowledge through our surgery to be able to know what we need to do if we do backslide and put on a few pounds. The biggest thing, I think, is not to beat ourselves up...just hop back on the wagon!
I sympathize though because I can sit here and tell a million people what they should be doing when I struggle so hard myself somedays. Just take it all day by day because we have to do this for the next 80 years!
~Emily~
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