i love rny

 So, I was sitting here, procrastinating, thinking of going to work to file to go spend the day on the river tomorrow with my girlfriends.  I mean, I used to always hang with the girls but i'd skip on the pool party lay out sesh's and trips down the river most of the time, and when I went i'd be the fat girl in the little suit trying to get some sun, well. I have lost 65 lbs as of today, hooray for one more pound gone, and yah, i am not skinny, nor do I want to be terribly small. I love my new body, and my new life. I love that I can have just a beer and giggle with the girls in my swim suit floating down the river in my intertube/raft knowing i wasn't too heavy and it wasnt going to sink (yes, that -was a fear) but, hey..I love that my surgery re-educated me about food. I love that I eat vegetables and like them, and salads with light dressings, I love that I drink water all day long, (i dont' love acne right now- but whatev) I love that I can lay in my bed and not gargle on my boobs in my neck and have to sleep on my stomach to breathe comfortably. I love that I can lay on my stomach and not have my head way off the bed on a higher pillow because thats what it does when your boobs force you to pu**** up. I love that I can wear nice clothes from my favorite designers, and I love that I can go and buy a 5 dollar shirt at stores like wet seal and rave, I love that I can jog (and ya so what if my thighs slap together a little) but i love that I can jog and not have my legs rub together into a damn rash or something .  I love that I am more confident in heals, but I love too that people aknowledge how 'short' and 'little' i am. 
I love my RNY. I love that I did this for me. I do not love, however that my hair is still falling out- and that my aortic valve hasn't gotten any better. but I guess everything takes time. i am excited to see where my surgery takes me.

I go to my 6 months post op appt at the end of the month, and im afraid i'll be in trouble for not losing enough, but i'll keep going, i'll keep doing it.  and i'll work to be where I want.

what has your RNY given you that you never expected to appreciate? what kind of changes has it made for you? I love reading blogs about how great people feel. =)

I am fighting desperately to get over my ex-love, but even if I dont- I love myself, and I am happy.  That is priceless.

and im not gonna lie, i can be a kick in the pants..=)

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xo Valerie
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oh and how about last night an old friend, a very hot old friend saw me and picked me up, i could wrap my legs around his waist while he walked. and his back did not go out- no herniated discs..it was scary, but it didnt phase him.  =) finally.

WOOOOOW u are doing such a great job val!! keep it up!

hugs

i like being able to run up the stairs to my apartment. also i like that i can climb stairs without getting winded. if im running late to class i can walk fast enough to get there. the greatest thing was yesterday i went to my friends laungeria shower and i walked in the door and the bride and one of the other brides maid didnt even reconize me til i spoke. now that is a great feeling. they were just so shocked at how much i lost. it  felt good. and i was happy not to be the only one who couldnt eat the cake or eat alot of the food b/c that same brides maid who didnt reconize me had lapband some years ago. i am proud of your susses and i think so long as your blood work is good your dr will be happy with you. ive lost alot in 6 monthes but my dr. wasnt happy b/c my levels were in the toliet so i have to come back next month and redo labs. enjoy your new life.

thanks ladies!! Good news is I take my vitamins daily. prenatals and calcium, vitamin c, i drink lots of water LOTS of water.  and I take my b-12, i have my levels checked monthly bc before surgery i was badly anemic. which im ok right now my hemoglobin is a little low, but not lower than usual.  =) and congrats apryl, lord knows it feels good to breath and walk without fearing a forest fire starting between our thighs! =) im not gonna lie- i have big legs, i will always have big legs. i love them. they are a part of me, yep. i was a 3 year old with cankles. a 12 year old with cankles, and a 24 year old with cankles.  its just part of who i am. thick legs, they run in my blood, im a stalky girl. and i love it.


and mariana- girlfriend you shoulda seen the hottie and carried me around.  =)

i'll have to take some pics on my regular outtings.  hes a stud.  ;)

i love waking up to text messages and going to bed to text messages saying how beatiful and gorgeous i am !! now if only they were actually coming from my fiancee  LOL
but thats a different story!!!

i love love love that quite a few people that i know are now looking into having surgery as well...they see that i survived and that i just cant get this smile off of my face!!