Maybe I'm Crazy...
Well had a long talk with my mom and husband today and I think I have decided to post pone my surgery...YIKES...I am gonna give diet...no...A LIFESTYLE change 6 months and see how it goes if after that I see no results I will try and persue surgery again....I am just so scared of the unknown with the RNY maybe if i get some weight off I might change to Lapband....My mom and husband are on board with the LIFESTYLE change making a commetment to eating healthy and walking everyday without fail...Wish me luck guys...I hope I am doing the right thing...
Nikki
Nikki
Nikki
Find me on facebook~ Nikki White-Heflin
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
My
is Rebecca Finkenbinder
Highest Weight/Day before Surgery/Starting Weight/Current/Goal
324/321/316/224/150
Lost 100 pounds November 19, 2010
First Appointment (4.3.2009), Psych Evaluation (4.13.2009), Insurance Approval (5.27.2009), Surgery Date Cancelled, New Surgeon Appointment (8.11.2009), New Insurance Approval (12.1.2009), Surgery Date (01.20.2010)
WHY I CHOSE DS: No dumping. Highest percentage of weight loss, Best long term results, Less weight regain, No dumping, No fills, Eat normal sized meals, Won't regain weight, No revisions, 96% diabeties, 90% high blood pressure, 80% sleep apnea cured.
Find me on facebook~ Nikki White-Heflin
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
My
is Rebecca FinkenbinderHighest Weight/Day before Surgery/Starting Weight/Current/Goal
324/321/316/224/150
Lost 100 pounds November 19, 2010
First Appointment (4.3.2009), Psych Evaluation (4.13.2009), Insurance Approval (5.27.2009), Surgery Date Cancelled, New Surgeon Appointment (8.11.2009), New Insurance Approval (12.1.2009), Surgery Date (01.20.2010)WHY I CHOSE DS: No dumping. Highest percentage of weight loss, Best long term results, Less weight regain, No dumping, No fills, Eat normal sized meals, Won't regain weight, No revisions, 96% diabeties, 90% high blood pressure, 80% sleep apnea cured.
Hi Nikki,
I too four years ago put off having surgery. I heard so many horror stories that I gave up and thought I could make it with a changed lifestyle. It was too hard for me, I gained even more weight and 4 years later I am getting my surgery scheduled anyday now for RNY.
Now please know I am not saying you are going to be like me in anyway. But I just want you to know that whatever you decide is for YOU. A lifestlye change has to happen with or without the surgery. My problem is that I choose food to cope with every problem I have in life it has been my crutch.
Good luck to you!! I will be praying for you.
I too four years ago put off having surgery. I heard so many horror stories that I gave up and thought I could make it with a changed lifestyle. It was too hard for me, I gained even more weight and 4 years later I am getting my surgery scheduled anyday now for RNY.
Now please know I am not saying you are going to be like me in anyway. But I just want you to know that whatever you decide is for YOU. A lifestlye change has to happen with or without the surgery. My problem is that I choose food to cope with every problem I have in life it has been my crutch.
Good luck to you!! I will be praying for you.
Thanks!!! I do love food too...But I keep telling myself it is killing me 
....I need to make healther choices and do it for good this time...we shall see...thanks for your kind words...
...And I will take all the praying I can get 
...
....I need to make healther choices and do it for good this time...we shall see...thanks for your kind words......And I will take all the praying I can get ... Nikki
Find me on facebook~ Nikki White-Heflin
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
My is Rebecca Finkenbinder
Highest Weight/Day before Surgery/Starting Weight/Current/Goal
324/321/316/224/150
Lost 100 pounds November 19, 2010
First Appointment (4.3.2009), Psych Evaluation (4.13.2009), Insurance Approval (5.27.2009), Surgery Date Cancelled, New Surgeon Appointment (8.11.2009), New Insurance Approval (12.1.2009), Surgery Date (01.20.2010)
WHY I CHOSE DS: No dumping. Highest percentage of weight loss, Best long term results, Less weight regain, No dumping, No fills, Eat normal sized meals, Won't regain weight, No revisions, 96% diabeties, 90% high blood pressure, 80% sleep apnea cured.
Find me on facebook~ Nikki White-Heflin
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
My
is Rebecca FinkenbinderHighest Weight/Day before Surgery/Starting Weight/Current/Goal
324/321/316/224/150
Lost 100 pounds November 19, 2010
First Appointment (4.3.2009), Psych Evaluation (4.13.2009), Insurance Approval (5.27.2009), Surgery Date Cancelled, New Surgeon Appointment (8.11.2009), New Insurance Approval (12.1.2009), Surgery Date (01.20.2010)WHY I CHOSE DS: No dumping. Highest percentage of weight loss, Best long term results, Less weight regain, No dumping, No fills, Eat normal sized meals, Won't regain weight, No revisions, 96% diabeties, 90% high blood pressure, 80% sleep apnea cured.
I might still be a little crazy LOL
...No but thanks for youe kind words it really means a lot to me
...No but thanks for youe kind words it really means a lot to me Nikki
Find me on facebook~ Nikki White-Heflin
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
My is Rebecca Finkenbinder
Highest Weight/Day before Surgery/Starting Weight/Current/Goal
324/321/316/224/150
Lost 100 pounds November 19, 2010
First Appointment (4.3.2009), Psych Evaluation (4.13.2009), Insurance Approval (5.27.2009), Surgery Date Cancelled, New Surgeon Appointment (8.11.2009), New Insurance Approval (12.1.2009), Surgery Date (01.20.2010)
WHY I CHOSE DS: No dumping. Highest percentage of weight loss, Best long term results, Less weight regain, No dumping, No fills, Eat normal sized meals, Won't regain weight, No revisions, 96% diabeties, 90% high blood pressure, 80% sleep apnea cured.
Find me on facebook~ Nikki White-Heflin
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
My
is Rebecca FinkenbinderHighest Weight/Day before Surgery/Starting Weight/Current/Goal
324/321/316/224/150
Lost 100 pounds November 19, 2010
First Appointment (4.3.2009), Psych Evaluation (4.13.2009), Insurance Approval (5.27.2009), Surgery Date Cancelled, New Surgeon Appointment (8.11.2009), New Insurance Approval (12.1.2009), Surgery Date (01.20.2010)WHY I CHOSE DS: No dumping. Highest percentage of weight loss, Best long term results, Less weight regain, No dumping, No fills, Eat normal sized meals, Won't regain weight, No revisions, 96% diabeties, 90% high blood pressure, 80% sleep apnea cured.
I think thats a great idea! You can do it I know you can! See for my bariatric program and insurance company it is a requirement to lose 10% of your weight. I lost 26lbs and I too had serious thoughts about sticking with what I was doing.. but IMO I have come so far and made such a radical change in the way I eat that I feel this tool will just make me even more successful! I havent had the surgery yet but just to have the surgery iv quit smoking a month ago iv lost 26lbs/ Iv learned how to eat!! and I actually enjoy it! This is a very VERY serious thing for me and I have a beautiful 2 year old daughter. I dont want her to end up like me. I dont want her to see me struggling. I want to be able to live for my daughter. She is the reason why im willing to do all of this. God has blessed me with this little girl because if I didnt have her.... I would probably keep growing and growing and growing.. haha
♥ ~Alexandra RNY Completed 8/19/09~ ♥
Height 5'1--HW 266*/CW-200*/GW-125*
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I don't think you're crazy at all. :)
I have been considering RNY for a little over a year now. I didn't begin to schedule pre-op appointments until the beginning of this month. I first decided on the surgery around February of this year, but did put it off to try one more time for a 'lifestyle' change without the use of surgery.
What I am confident about in regards to the surgery is that it is a lifestyle change. It is also a change that will last a lifetime. I know what you mean when you say you're reluctant and why (since I was too), but keep in mind that the surgery offers just as true a lifestyle change as you can strive for without it.
If you have some time, I just wrote a post about a couple of the appointments I've had in the past week. I wrote about a really interesting subject that the psychologist I saw talked to me about: 'diets', which are very often disguised as 'lifestyle' changes, never work for the long term. In my blog post, I laid out what I got out of her conclusion. I think it might interest you.
http://www.obesityhelp.com/member/whyweight88/
Whatever you decide to do, I hope you have a good time getting the results you want and maintaining the success. Good luck!
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That's a tough decision... well I will give you a small warning cause I had it happen to me... I was never actually the right weight to be approved for surgery at 40 BMI and when I finally gave up dieting and lifestyle changes etc. I was less than 35 BMI but still NOT happy with myself. I couldn't lose any more weight. I was still obese and felt fat... yeah yeah... I could wear size 16 and large shirts... alllmost fitting into 14... but where was the light at the end of the tunnel? I'd lost it... I had tried several things over 5 years.. .and I'd only managed to get into the 190s range ... still obese! never ever just overweight... even with diets and lifestyle changes that lasted a year... When I decided I wanted WLS I was too light to qualify. I had to gain 25 lbs (the weight I paid Weigh****chers for 10 months to help me lose) and fudge a few pounds as well to be the right weight and it was really difficult for me. Oddly enough I was glad then I hadn't lost even more... What if I'd gotten seriously stuck at 170 lbs and been unhappy? I would go nuts thinking of gaining 50 lbs for the sake of surgery....... Paying for it myself? ... What could I do but wait and eat worse until it crept back on again like it always did between diets...
I wished then that I had really tried for and considered. WLS a year ago when my mom had hers because although I thought weigh****chers would work for me as long as I changed my lifestyle to fit it and I did change... it didn't work I lost less than 30 lbs in the 10 months on the program... and then I found out my weight loss efforts to not ever need surgery were to no avail, because the efforts to lose weight caused me to need surgery regardless. WLS or not, my gallbladder needs to come out. I developed gallstones from the many years I spent dieting and they occasionally cause me excruciating pain.
I just wanted you to hear my story cause I was on the same boat as you a year ago. I'm not sure if my story might have helped me decide then... I probably still would have tried WW because I wasn't really ready for surgery. I still wanted to be able to eat carbs when I felt like it and I thought I could handle it and say no to the bad things for me without help. I thought I could portion control.. .etc... buuut I was wrong... lol ... Now I'm mature enough to say that even if being thin and healthy causes me to lose carbs and sweets.. the loves of my life ....forever, I'll manage without them.
Then again... one more year or so of trying diet shouldn't hurt you (gallstones aside....). If you succeed you'll feel great, and if you don't make it you will still have the option and plenty of people here to support you. Plus you'll have a new outlook on food for sure.. I got a new outlook with every diet I was on and I learned new things each time. So it will hopefully help you on your journey to success, no matter the means.
Good luck! I'm rooting for you!
I wished then that I had really tried for and considered. WLS a year ago when my mom had hers because although I thought weigh****chers would work for me as long as I changed my lifestyle to fit it and I did change... it didn't work I lost less than 30 lbs in the 10 months on the program... and then I found out my weight loss efforts to not ever need surgery were to no avail, because the efforts to lose weight caused me to need surgery regardless. WLS or not, my gallbladder needs to come out. I developed gallstones from the many years I spent dieting and they occasionally cause me excruciating pain.
I just wanted you to hear my story cause I was on the same boat as you a year ago. I'm not sure if my story might have helped me decide then... I probably still would have tried WW because I wasn't really ready for surgery. I still wanted to be able to eat carbs when I felt like it and I thought I could handle it and say no to the bad things for me without help. I thought I could portion control.. .etc... buuut I was wrong... lol ... Now I'm mature enough to say that even if being thin and healthy causes me to lose carbs and sweets.. the loves of my life ....forever, I'll manage without them.
Then again... one more year or so of trying diet shouldn't hurt you (gallstones aside....). If you succeed you'll feel great, and if you don't make it you will still have the option and plenty of people here to support you. Plus you'll have a new outlook on food for sure.. I got a new outlook with every diet I was on and I learned new things each time. So it will hopefully help you on your journey to success, no matter the means.
Good luck! I'm rooting for you!
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