Surgery In 10 days....Scared and NOT Excited. What's the deal?

OKAY SO I DON'T KNOW WHAT IN THE WORLD IS GOING ON WITH ME. I HAVE 10 MORE DAYS UNTIL MY SURGERY AND I DON'T FEEL EXCITED OR ANXIOUS OR ANYTHING. I AM NOT SURE IF THAT IS NORMAL OR WHAT. TOMORROW I START MY LIQUID DIET, I WASN'T TOLD THAT I HAD TO BUT I AM JUST GOING TO DO IT JUST BECAUSE...TO BENIFIT MYSELF. BUT EVERYONE SEEMS SO MUCH MORE EXCITED THAN I AM. I WANT THIS MORE THAN ANYTHING IN THE WORLD AND IT'S AMAZING THAT IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN BUT MAYBE I AM SCARED I AM NOT SURE...I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH DEATH AND I FEEL LIKE MAYBE I WONT COME OUT OF SURGERY. MY FAMILY HAS LOST 4 PEOPLE JUST SINCE NOVEMBER AND THAT IS ALOT TO DEAL WITH, SO I GUESS DEATH HAS BECAUSE A BIG PROBLEM FOR ME.  HAS ANYONE EVER FELT LIKE THEY WOULDN'T MAKE IT THROUGH OR JUST NOT AT THE UPMOST EXCITED FOR SURGERY?? I WAS SO EXCITED BEFORE I GOT 110% APPROVED AND THEN IT KINDA ALL WENT AWAY.  DOES THIS MAKE SINCE?

Girl what u are feelinlg is really normal. i thought i was gonna die! i rembeber the night before surgery when i was taking all the medication befor the surgery. i was thinking the whole time, ok that was it!!!! it was a nice life bla bla bla hahaha.
but it will worth it. u are gonna be soooo happy with the results that you are gonna forget about it.
i would do it all over again if i have toooooo.
good luck with ur liquid diet. thats the worse part ones is over is gonna bea piece of cake.
hugs

I completely understand what you mean. I went from so excited about surgery to... oh this is not happening and it all felt so sureal. I wasn't nervous, I had complete faith in my surgeon and knew that he would not let anything happen to me. I had a calm feeling all morning the day of surgery until they took me back and got me ready and started my IV and had the anastesiologist (sp) come back and then I lost it. I started shaking and started to cry and was soo nervous. He gave me something to take the edge off and that really helped and before I knew it I was saying bye to my mom and they were wheeling me back for surgery and the next thing I remember I was waking up in recover and the the RN's kept telling me to wake up so they could bring my parents back to see me.... I guess they were getting really worried cuz it took longer than they had thought it would for me to come out of it. Everything went perfectly fine. you will be fine too, just have faith and the end result will be so worth it! good luck

 Your not excited because you are having surgery!  Surgery is icky...do you ever see the Discovery Health Channel??  Not a fun picture they paint!   Thankfully we are all passed out cold! 

 Even though I knew that I was making the right choice and whatnot, I was still terrified and angry leading up to it.   It took awhile, even after surgery when I finally got the gist of everything, to accept and be excited for what just happened to me.  

If you are really nervous, ask for a sedative to relax you before you go up to the OR...I did and I'm glad I did because I might have changed my mind last minute.    

You'll do great!



~Emily~

It's completely normal to feel nervous or scared or nothing at all. I really was kinda like you are, I wasn't really nervous at all. Everyone reacts in different ways. But don't worry the surgery part is really easy, it's afterward that sux! Sorry i still have a week left on puree food, ewww. But really it was easy, when I was sitting in preop they came in and gave me a blood thinner shot in my side (painless) they gave me some adavant to calm my nerves and they did my IV, it was all easy and everyone was so nice. The anesthesiologist came in to make sure I had no questions, then the nurse anesthetist came in and he slips you another little feel good medicine. They wheeled me into the OR, I switched beds and then they gased me and I woke up in recovery to them telling me it was time to get up! Really we have the easy part we just got to sleep. Also the pain really wasn't as bad as I thought. Just make sure that you have someone to stay with you, that helps alot because the nurses are always busy. Make sure you walk as much as you can and try really hard to get in your liquids, you'll do great!!!!!! Good luck with everything- Catch you on the flip side!!

- Savannah

Hi Bobbye (love your name btw).... certainly can relate to you.  I'm happy yet trying not to think about my date.  To me - what you are going through seems better than WORRYING about the date or having anxiety about it.  This means the next 10 days should go by somewhat fast for ya since there isn't 'mental pressure" about it.  About the death thing.... chalk it up.  Death can occur whenever it's your time.  Although the topic does filter through my mind from time to time... I can't let that stick in my head.

Keep thinking about how healthy and happier you will be in the post.. fill your mind with those thoughts and you'll be fine!

Totally normal...I was so nervous about having surgery (WLS was my first) that my friends kindly threw me a WAKE....so I could be there in case they had to have one after my death in surgery. LOL...it was a hoot.

Surgery is nervewracking, though...but realize that the morbidity rate from this surgery is low, and most deaths are from very high risk patients. Laporascopic surgery has very few complications overall.

And realize that you're about to start a whole new exciting phase of your life, and you'll look back and think it was worth it all!

THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR YOUR INPUT I AM GETTING A BIT MORE EXCITED ABOUT IT AND AT THE SAME TIME FRUSTRATED. I AM ON MY SECOND DAY OF LIQUID AND I AM GOING NUTS!!! ANYWAYS I THANK YOU ALL ONCE AGAIN THIS HELPS ME SOOO MUCH. YOU ALL ARE AWESOME!

I was like you. I wasn't excited I just basically wanted it over with. I was scared of possible complications and cried before surgery (I think most people do) but I was at peace with my decision regardless of the outcome. I wish you the best of luck and a speedy and uneventful recovery.

 Hey, I can completely relate to how you're feeling! I actually have the same surgery day as you so as its creeping closer I'm going through all sorts of mixed emotions. I was SO excited all through the pre-op process but when I finally had a surgery date its almost like it hit me... wow, I'm actually doing this! And that sort of freaked me out! I'm hope you're feeling better about the surgery now and getting excited as our surgery date gets closer!