I just need to get it out...Fear of Failure.

It's been 2.5 weeks since my complication-fix/revision. and I am having this huge feeling that I am going to fail all over again. How much of my weight regain was me and how much was the complication? Am I going to go through the huge rollercoaster of way down then way up again? 

It's overwhelming. I've weighed myself everyday and have not lost anything for the past week. I am only down 11lbs so far. Am I failing already? The only thing I feel working is that pills are getting stuck. Other than that...I feel myself progressing so quickly through the diet. I can even gulp water (I tried not to, but it's hard when you're out in the Louisiana heat all day and you only get a few minutes to rest and drink water). 

I know I need to stop weighing myself every day before I go crazy. I know I need to stop obsessive-compulsively charting my weight and calories or I am afraid I will mess up and eat more than I should sometime and make myself puke or something. I just don't want to fail again. I don't know if I can take it.

Hey hun I just read a little bit on your journal and YOU did not fail! Your tool failed you and that is not your fault at all! You still accomplished some amazing things and Im really proud of you for having the courage to try again!

Just try to relax and follow the plan! Stress can cause you to hang on to excess weight and it sounds like you are majorly stressing! It has only been 2.5 weeks and 11lbs is something to be proud of, YOU ARE DOING GREAT!!!

Thanks, ladies. I really needed to hear that from someone else. You can say as much as you want that weighing in every day won't affect you, but it does!

I am stressed with work, too, so that doesn't help. I'm letting go...letting go of my worries....ohmmmmm......

Ok, it was worth a try. :) I'll keep pluggin' on...

Yeah seriosuly quit weighing...I have lost a chunk of weight but I know where you come from I feel like I am destine to be fat forever I guess I truely dont love who I am yet I cant wait till that day comes

aw girl i know how u feel and is very normal we all feel the same nomatter how far u are. i glad everything is good now with ur revision.
but honestly WE ALL have to stop thinking about beinf failures. this is getting into our minds and stoping our weigh loss. we are strong confident  and beutiful women and we shouldn´t  let this afect us! common!! we are worring to much about scales, calories. we need to stop doing that to ourselfs and concentrate in being healthy and doing the things right without tourning in to diet freaks!! this is not only upset us it upsets our families and loves ones. so lets try to be cool about all this and try to keep the calm lol. i know is hella hard.

remember how hard was the fisth time to get all in and stuff. u are living all this process again so keep it positive you will be fine and at goal in no time!!
keep us posted!!!!
hugs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Glad your fix/revision went well.  Keep weighing yourself--if that is what you need to do then do it.  You are at one of those points that last a week or last weeks.  You will be fine; think through what is important and stay focused.