Wi**** wasn't like this
Right now, my brother has a bunch of friends over swimming in our pool. I would love to be able to go swimming too, but I don't feel confident going outside in front of others in a bathing suit. There are a bunch of pretty, skinny girls out there and I would feel so out of place and bad about myself. I am so tired of feeling this way. It's just really depressing. Sorry, but I just had to let that out.
It's ok!! You are not alone. I've been in that situation more times than I can count and honestly, I don't think I'll ever, at any weight, be 100% comfortable in a bathing suit in front of other people. I think I will always be self conscience about that. It's ok though, I'm sure those skinny girls have hang ups too, every woman does.
~Emily~
~Emily~
"Tis better to be hated for who you are than loved for who you are not"
I know how you feel and I have felt the same way in High School...But I got to a point where I am like I dont care what other people think if they dont like it dont look at me...that is just my 2 cents...I think you should put your suit on and have fun 
Nikki
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"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
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is Rebecca Finkenbinder
Highest Weight/Day before Surgery/Starting Weight/Current/Goal
324/321/316/224/150
Lost 100 pounds November 19, 2010
First Appointment (4.3.2009), Psych Evaluation (4.13.2009), Insurance Approval (5.27.2009), Surgery Date Cancelled, New Surgeon Appointment (8.11.2009), New Insurance Approval (12.1.2009), Surgery Date (01.20.2010)
WHY I CHOSE DS: No dumping. Highest percentage of weight loss, Best long term results, Less weight regain, No dumping, No fills, Eat normal sized meals, Won't regain weight, No revisions, 96% diabeties, 90% high blood pressure, 80% sleep apnea cured.
Find me on facebook~ Nikki White-Heflin
"I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best." - Marilyn Monroe
My
is Rebecca FinkenbinderHighest Weight/Day before Surgery/Starting Weight/Current/Goal
324/321/316/224/150
Lost 100 pounds November 19, 2010
First Appointment (4.3.2009), Psych Evaluation (4.13.2009), Insurance Approval (5.27.2009), Surgery Date Cancelled, New Surgeon Appointment (8.11.2009), New Insurance Approval (12.1.2009), Surgery Date (01.20.2010)WHY I CHOSE DS: No dumping. Highest percentage of weight loss, Best long term results, Less weight regain, No dumping, No fills, Eat normal sized meals, Won't regain weight, No revisions, 96% diabeties, 90% high blood pressure, 80% sleep apnea cured.
Man I can relate to that post! The new complex we are moving into has a huge gorgeous pool and when DH and I went over last night to sign paperwork I went out and took a look. There were so many beautiful and thin girls in bikinis that I instantly got sick to my stomach. I was planning on throwing a big move in party and having a BBQ pool side, once I can eat again that is, but seeing all those girls and guys being all this and gorgeous, I just can't see that now. Most of the time, I can go in in my black one piece and not worry about it but sometimes, it hits me right in the gut like a sack of bricks. *le sigh* My heart is with you girlie!
If nature had intended our skeletons to be visible, it would have put them on the outside of our bodies.
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