Hey Guys -- Another Introduction!!!
Hi Everyone! I just signed found this forum and signed up last night. I was looking everywhere for a forum that related to younger people and I am soooo glad I found this site. There are just questions and hesitations that other people wouldnt understand. I hope to be able to put all the worries and fears to rest.
So -- Anyways.. I'm Ashley and I'm 21. I have been overweight since I can remember. When I was 14 I was about 190 lbs and I lost close to 20 lbs doing Slim for Life. To be honest, that wasn't a bad weight for how my body is built. It definitely wasn't desired -- but it was managable. Then I dropped slim for life because it was a gruling abd boring process. By the time I was a Senior in High School I weight 250. I went on a strict diet of chicken salad and 3/ week workouts and I lost 30 lbs for Freshman year of college. I'm not starting my fourth year at KU and, having put all of my weight on and then some, I feel so defeated. My insecurities about my weight have gotten the best of me and simple things like hanging out with your friends has become a task for me. I used to be really *****y and outgoing and funny and full of laughs -- not all I do is alienate people and get defensive. It's like I feel like everyone is talking bad about me and my fat ass I can't even have a normal relationship. .... . I know this isnt a psych forum, I just needed to get some stuff out. I think this is the first time I've ever actually said these words and it hurts a lot. I know that when I am comfortable with myself again - physically - I'll be able to build normal relationships and work on my confidence.
I just scheduled my first consultation for June 8th and I hope to get the surgery scheduled as soon as possible. I'll keep you guys updated and you'll probably see me posting here and there.
*hugs* Ashley
05/29/09 Open RNY Surgery!!! On My WLS Journey!! Currently --115lbs as of 11/18/2009!!
and yes because we are young me have diferent motivations and reasons to do this and sometimes the oldies in OH do not understan our resons. so u are in the right place. and you will find a lot of support in all this wonderful girls who hang out here.
hugs and keep us posted.
