depressed

 I feel so depressed today. Today my family had a gathering and I realized I was the only FAT one. All the women in my family are slim and these women are in their 30s and 40s i felt so ashamed. An to make it worse my boyfriend was with me he probably wonders why he got stuck with the fat one? he probably does not think like that but i would understand if he did. all the women in my family including my mom are way slimmer and were wearing nice sexy outfits with heels. while i wore the only semi- nice shirt i found with jeans and flip flops because my feet are so chubby that i cant wear any heels. ohhh man i hope i get my approval this week. i really need a change. i cant wait to have surgery june 5th. This day really got me down, i hate the way i look. ohh well thanx for listening oh family.. i just really needed to vent.

So sorry to hear about your day.  I understand where you are coming from with the family thing.  I am the 'fat family member' and it always makes me feel awful after family gatherings.  The great thing about family is that they love you no matter what.  I actually have a cousin that had the surgery and didn't tell anyone!!  She got super skinny and just said "I've been eating healthier" but she told me she had it.  I didn't take that route, I wanted everyone to know that I made a choice to become healthier so they could help me get through the rough times.   I hope that you have a good support system for the surgery, it's helped me so much having my family cheering me on.  You will be there soon!! = )  *hugs*

-April

 aawww thanx so much for ur response. well my family supports me but they are scared u know all the bad stuff they have heard about the surgery..some tell me to think about it but really i have nothing to think about..my minda is set..I want change all I need is that approval and god willing I'll be on my way.

aw girl i know exacly how you feel all of the women of my family are slim and gorgeous i`m serious with this my sister cousin an even my mom are known  here in my hometow for been one of the most beautiful women around. so  it was very hard for me be the fat one.  and i hated when people compare me with my sister it sucks.
i always wish that at least one family memeber was fat. hahaha.
well my point is that you are not alone an that a lot of us have to go trough all this crap.
but you are beautiful and you are gonna feel much better about your self when u start losing.
good luck!!!!!
hugs.

Add another one to the list of "The Fat Family Member". This x-mas the whole extended family got together and once again it was clear that I was the only fat one. To make matters a little worse I was with my jerk of an ex BF and a cousin of mine (whom I really dislike) announced tha she was engaged to her very hot BF.

I'm sure you're going to get approved! Just think, when you have your surgery you'll be even hotter than you are now.

Good Luck!

 once again thanks for all the responses. makes me feel better to know some ppl that know what i am talking about

I know the feeling. Im the fat sister in law. I fit in with my family, but I go to my husbands familys gatherings and its like "why did he marry the fatty?" I have been big since we got together so its not like he married me for my body. I lived with them for a while and we shared laundry, and blinked and stared at his moms and sisters size 4s. Im sure they were confused when it was their turn to fold my size 26s.  I told him last year that I wasnt going over there anymore because I was tired of being the biggest person in the room. I felt like I was the elephant!
I also went to a formal for my husbands promotion at work, and he said it was ok to wear slacks, and the only thing I had that wasnt blue jeans was a pair of black jeans. I wore them with a semi nice shirt and I was so embarassed when I showed up. all the other wives were wearing dresses and looking hot, and I was the frumpy pants wearing wife that couldnt find a dress that didnt make me look like a house.
Im 5 months post op and not embarassed to go to my husbands work anymore, and I have been told by both brothers in law that I look amazing and hot. (kinda weird but it runs in the family)
Its so loud and clear to feel that way because I have been feeling like that for the past 7 years. I dont even have any big friends to share in my plus size woes. :) this board is great because everyone understands what its like.
wait till they see you at thanksgiving. everyone will be talking about how GOOD you look