Why OoO Why?!?!
I love Share & Tell...I really like reading everyones reasons/journeys/blogs. It's amazing!!
So I know everyone chooses to have WLS for different reasons or motivations. What was your reason(s)? At What point were you like "That it...I am doing this..."
Nichole05/29/09 Open RNY Surgery!!! On My WLS Journey!!
Currently --115lbs as of 11/18/2009!!
Currently --115lbs as of 11/18/2009!!
Well I was sick and tired of being sick and tired all the time. I started out at 335 pounds and that was enough for me. I'm sure at times I weighed more than this. I wanted to be able to keep up with my husband and son. I can finally do it now ! And I feel sooooo much better now. And I'm off all meds that I took before.
I always knew I wanted a guy who loved me for me, and didn't care if I was skinny or not, and I found him. We'd been together for 1 1/2 years, and I always kept him at arm's length because I didn't want to admit that my weight was a problem--not for him, but for me. When I finally let him in, he shared with me how afraid he was for my health--physical and mental, and he didn't know how to deal with me when I had my self-loathing, stay the f*** away moments. I'd been sneaking food, bingeing, and getting really depressed. I didn't want to do anything, I was miserable, and I had only myself to blame. I decided I didn't want to be a slave to food or my poor body image or the limitations of my weight, I was tired of failing at dieting. I admitted to myself that I couldn't beat it without some help, so I started the process and just kept going.
Two months out of surgery, I'm down 30+ lbs, but not really counting, and my body is changing week to week. I finally feel hopeful, energetic, positive, like I can beat this thing!! I'm not perfect, I puke, I dump, I forget to eat or drink...but my new plumbing forces me to get back on the program ASAP. I am so proud of myself for taking the steps following through, and starting a new way of life.
Two months out of surgery, I'm down 30+ lbs, but not really counting, and my body is changing week to week. I finally feel hopeful, energetic, positive, like I can beat this thing!! I'm not perfect, I puke, I dump, I forget to eat or drink...but my new plumbing forces me to get back on the program ASAP. I am so proud of myself for taking the steps following through, and starting a new way of life.
This year I started seeing the first real symptoms of the lifestyle I thought would end, and the end of the diet that I thought would be my last. I started weigh****chers a little before my mom had her surgery, and I thought to myself that it would be my very last diet. I would stay on trac****il I was thin and then I would stay thin and happy and healthy and that would be the end of it. Almost a year after I started weigh****chers I feel like I've only begone a long and harrowing journey that has no real promise for success. I've developed gallstones from my constant weight and diet fluctuations which occasionally cause me pain, and I need to have surgery to get my gallbladder out with or without having WLS. I realized the path I was on was just going to create more problems with no promise of the major problem, (my weight) ever fading away. It affects my life I think in ways I don't even notice. To be honest, I don't have self consciousness issues with the general public. I assume everyone is accepting and doesn't put value towards weight, but that may not be the case. I got laid off last month over a guy who doesn't do half of what I did, and I can't help wondering if my boss (who always seemed to have SOMETHING against me) used my weight as a judge of my worth.
Basically I just don't want to waste a single moment more of my life living like this than I have to. I want to live every bit of my life possible as a thin and healthy person. I know my previous dieting attempts and failures have led me to this point for a reason. I'm not going to ignore it. :)
Basically I just don't want to waste a single moment more of my life living like this than I have to. I want to live every bit of my life possible as a thin and healthy person. I know my previous dieting attempts and failures have led me to this point for a reason. I'm not going to ignore it. :)
My morbidly obese aunt died of a massive heart attack in October 2006 at the age of 42. She was my mom's best friend in college (so not blood relative, but still). While preparing for the funeral, we went through a ton of old photos, and we realized that I was heavier than she was at the same age. I knew I couldn't lose weight through diet and excercise alone. It was well documented that I couldn't. I could clearly see the road I was heading down, and it wasn't pretty.
I have always been overweight, and it's baffled doctors and nutritionists. Nothing "wrong" with me. I wasn't a binge eater or a stress eater. I played competitive fastpitch softball from childhood through college. I was active, and I was healthy-ish. One big thing, I took my high cholesterol from 249 to 214 in three months, just by changing my diet. I didn't lose any weight.
I suffer from degenerative joint problems, and the weight didn't help. And my weight wasn't great for my emotional and mental image of myself.
I decided to be proactive and take control of my health. I didn't have any co-morbidities, other than slightly high cholesterol. But I didn't want to wait for the sleep apnea, diabetes, high blood pressure, etc. to develop before I could stop it.
My genetics don't help me either. High cholesterol runs rampant on both sides of my family, diabetes from my dad's side, and heart disease on both sides. I was basically a walking time bomb.
So, I had my surgery, I'm down 75lbs so far, and I'm looking forward to living a long, long time.
I have always been overweight, and it's baffled doctors and nutritionists. Nothing "wrong" with me. I wasn't a binge eater or a stress eater. I played competitive fastpitch softball from childhood through college. I was active, and I was healthy-ish. One big thing, I took my high cholesterol from 249 to 214 in three months, just by changing my diet. I didn't lose any weight.
I suffer from degenerative joint problems, and the weight didn't help. And my weight wasn't great for my emotional and mental image of myself.
I decided to be proactive and take control of my health. I didn't have any co-morbidities, other than slightly high cholesterol. But I didn't want to wait for the sleep apnea, diabetes, high blood pressure, etc. to develop before I could stop it.
My genetics don't help me either. High cholesterol runs rampant on both sides of my family, diabetes from my dad's side, and heart disease on both sides. I was basically a walking time bomb.
So, I had my surgery, I'm down 75lbs so far, and I'm looking forward to living a long, long time.
I've seen my dad, aunts and uncles gain weight and not get it off and become diabetic and dependent on insulin and have knee and back issues and I didn't want that for myself so I decided to be an example for them and have surgery and hope that once they see how I do they will change their ways and start doing better! Plus I wanted to look and feel like a normal 21 year old should and be able to look nice and wear what ever I want and shop where ever and not worry about "will they have my size?"
does someone ever ask you about what would u wish if some genie ask you for your 3 wishes? well i just had one wi**** was to lose all the weight but i rember that i had to be very careful, `cuz wanted to lose 2 to 4 lbs per week `cuz every body would tell that something happen if i lose the weight right away. ( i thought about this constantly)
after my parents ofered the surgery for the 3th time and i prayed alot to God to be helathy and thin. i realized that was my wish. that it was being giving to me and i was sayin no!!. SO I MADE MY DECISION AND SAID YES TO MY DREAm. its sound silly but it was how i made my decision. cuz i didn´t want to waist all my youth being fat!.
after my parents ofered the surgery for the 3th time and i prayed alot to God to be helathy and thin. i realized that was my wish. that it was being giving to me and i was sayin no!!. SO I MADE MY DECISION AND SAID YES TO MY DREAm. its sound silly but it was how i made my decision. cuz i didn´t want to waist all my youth being fat!.
I spent the majority of my life overweight. I always felt that if I had been thin, things would be different. I wouldn't just be known for my great personality (I'm sure so many of us have heard that). I really wanted to not be different. I also, really wanted to be healthy. I'm sure we have all had those moments where were so ashamed of ourselves because of our weight, I know I was. One day, I just woke up and decided that I didn't want to be ashamed anymore. I wanted to feel beautiful and healthy all around and knew this surgery would be the only way to accompli**** So after many times of chickening out, I just dived in head first, and here I am, 2 months post op!! :)
I gained all my weight in college, then went on LA weight loss and I looked great, I felt great. I loved the way people (guys mostly) treated me. I had two babies and packed it all -plus 30 back on. I am tired of failing diets and decided (oh I know this is not popular) that I wanted the easier way. WLS forces me to eat correctly.
I have no co morbids, but am pre diabetic... I think most of my reasoning was for vanity... which also means mental health!!
I have no co morbids, but am pre diabetic... I think most of my reasoning was for vanity... which also means mental health!!