I hate my band and it hates me back (kinda long, apologies in advance)
Hey all,
so i havent been on OH for a long time partly due to the fact that Im in school and that gets busy along with work, and partly because i have stopped losing weight and gained some back and im embarrassed. And since i got my first fill in my band about a year ago ive had problems, with it, like i had too much fill in the band for a while and had to go back a few times to get it (almost) completely unfilled. Once that was set, i was good for a while up untill maybe october i was loosing weight and then it started to pack on, no matter what i did i couldnt keep losing, im at the point now that ive gained about 15lbs back but am stuck now. and i know what im doing, im either not eating enough, or eating too much, not exercising enough, the list goes on. I know what i should be doing but its difficult, and its like i'd rather gain weight without this thing inside of me making me miserable. Its totally is making me miserable, because its difficult to eat anything, i hate that i cant just make a sandwhich, or heat up left over macaroni for dinner when im in a rush. And I know my whole problem is mental, i get that, and I want to go and meet with a therapist to figure out my issues with food, and i think that once i get those underway i (think/hope) ill finally be able to lose the weight that I need to.
When i first started on this journey my psychologist told me that people had reserves of having a foreign body inside of them, and now i know what they mean, i hate having this thing blocking food at times and making me uncomfortable, *if you dont have the lapband it can be really pain for while if food gets stuck* and the constant throwing the food up and the worry that if im out with people that if the food gets stuck ill have to run to the bathroom, and my whole family is always worried when i put my fork down to take a breather that im stuck and that in its self is wicked annoying.
Well at least now i do feel better that i vented all my frustrations out. Thank you to anyone who sits here and reads this and responds, Any advice will be much appreciated.
*Oh and the reason why i posted here is because no one here has ever given me, or anyone else sh*t for not liking my surgery and I knew id get the best support here then other forums.*
so i havent been on OH for a long time partly due to the fact that Im in school and that gets busy along with work, and partly because i have stopped losing weight and gained some back and im embarrassed. And since i got my first fill in my band about a year ago ive had problems, with it, like i had too much fill in the band for a while and had to go back a few times to get it (almost) completely unfilled. Once that was set, i was good for a while up untill maybe october i was loosing weight and then it started to pack on, no matter what i did i couldnt keep losing, im at the point now that ive gained about 15lbs back but am stuck now. and i know what im doing, im either not eating enough, or eating too much, not exercising enough, the list goes on. I know what i should be doing but its difficult, and its like i'd rather gain weight without this thing inside of me making me miserable. Its totally is making me miserable, because its difficult to eat anything, i hate that i cant just make a sandwhich, or heat up left over macaroni for dinner when im in a rush. And I know my whole problem is mental, i get that, and I want to go and meet with a therapist to figure out my issues with food, and i think that once i get those underway i (think/hope) ill finally be able to lose the weight that I need to.
When i first started on this journey my psychologist told me that people had reserves of having a foreign body inside of them, and now i know what they mean, i hate having this thing blocking food at times and making me uncomfortable, *if you dont have the lapband it can be really pain for while if food gets stuck* and the constant throwing the food up and the worry that if im out with people that if the food gets stuck ill have to run to the bathroom, and my whole family is always worried when i put my fork down to take a breather that im stuck and that in its self is wicked annoying.
Well at least now i do feel better that i vented all my frustrations out. Thank you to anyone who sits here and reads this and responds, Any advice will be much appreciated.
*Oh and the reason why i posted here is because no one here has ever given me, or anyone else sh*t for not liking my surgery and I knew id get the best support here then other forums.*
So I rely liked your honesty. I had surgery about a month ago. before surgery I went back and forth between lap band and gastric bypass, In the end i chose to have gastric bypass. I just didnt think I could handle the constant being poked and the constant having things getting stuck or having to much fill. Or the worse thing being allergic to the fill liqued like one of my friends. There are days I think what did I do. Exspecially when I have long stalls. You just need to have a talk with your dr. and your phsycholigist. It is a forign object in you and you have to get used to it eventully or talk to your dr. about another type of surgery to help with the weight loss, but i tell you even with gastric bypass food still gets stuck and will come back up. But I hope you get better and start to lose again. Remeber both options are supposed to be about low carb high protein. So just try channging how you eat. I wish you all the luck. If you need someone to talk to just leave me a message.
SW 280/ SW 266/ PPW 175/ CW 185
hey girl. I`m sorry you are having a bad time. but I do understand how you feel. now that i`m a year out . i can eat almost everything and is getting really hard to keep making good chooises. and with this holiday stuf. it got worse. but know i`m trying to get back on track. and go back to my exersice routin.
about your weigh gain 15 lb are not much. you are on time to get rid of it. and keep losing so we can do it together. we can do like a minichallenge or somethign to keep us motivated.
hang in there and take charge.
hugs
mariana
about your weigh gain 15 lb are not much. you are on time to get rid of it. and keep losing so we can do it together. we can do like a minichallenge or somethign to keep us motivated.
hang in there and take charge.
hugs
mariana
First off, I'd really really recommend posting this on the LapBand forum if you haven't already. No one there will give you **** they will HELP you. Here is my advice to you -- you need to step back, clear your mind and remember why you started this journey in the first place....
It sounds like you have been too tight, but I cannot tell you are right now. The point of the band is to give restriction which means if you eat too fast, too much, don't chew, then you will get stuck. That is the whole POINT of the band. That being said, you said you wish you could make a sandwich or mac and cheese... those kinds of food will clumb in the stomach (for RNYers too!) ... they are not exactly healthy food.
I advise that you get back to the basics of what the band is all about. If you chew very well, dont drink with your food, etc, etc, it CAN work for you and VERY well. You can either continue feeling hopeless or help yourself... remember why you started this whole process and keep an open mind and do your best to get back on track. The band works if you work it. It also works if you have a doctor that lists carefully to you and is proactive.
Because I follow the rules, I don't get stuck often, so I don't see it as a "thing inside me"... it's a tool that works very very well.. and will make you miserable if you don't follow the rules. On the flip side, if you follow the band rules, you will most likely lose weight.
This isn't just exclusive for the band. Though RNYers lose fast, they will gain back if they don't follow their own rules eventually. It's all about a life change.
Once again, I REALLY REALLY encourage you to post this on the band forum. There are people there that have gone through the same exact thing and come out stronger and thinner on the other side!
I wish you the best of luck! Stay hopeful and know that the future is yours to live!
It sounds like you have been too tight, but I cannot tell you are right now. The point of the band is to give restriction which means if you eat too fast, too much, don't chew, then you will get stuck. That is the whole POINT of the band. That being said, you said you wish you could make a sandwich or mac and cheese... those kinds of food will clumb in the stomach (for RNYers too!) ... they are not exactly healthy food.
I advise that you get back to the basics of what the band is all about. If you chew very well, dont drink with your food, etc, etc, it CAN work for you and VERY well. You can either continue feeling hopeless or help yourself... remember why you started this whole process and keep an open mind and do your best to get back on track. The band works if you work it. It also works if you have a doctor that lists carefully to you and is proactive.
Because I follow the rules, I don't get stuck often, so I don't see it as a "thing inside me"... it's a tool that works very very well.. and will make you miserable if you don't follow the rules. On the flip side, if you follow the band rules, you will most likely lose weight.
This isn't just exclusive for the band. Though RNYers lose fast, they will gain back if they don't follow their own rules eventually. It's all about a life change.
Once again, I REALLY REALLY encourage you to post this on the band forum. There are people there that have gone through the same exact thing and come out stronger and thinner on the other side!
I wish you the best of luck! Stay hopeful and know that the future is yours to live!
I would def reccomend talking to someone. My mental issue comes in the forms of stalls, when i freak myself out and think OMG i'm going to start gaining weight!!!! I'm only 3 months out and it freaks me out.. i've thrown up twice, and one time made myself throw up bc i didnt feel good. I dont make the best decisions all of the time, and its a slow and long road. I think if you go back to the basics that will be great. Does the place you had your surgery at have a support group? Try that. Message me if you need any support!!! Sherri
Oh honey, I'm so sorry you're having so many negative issues.
Number one for me... seek that therapist! Your school probably has one available for free! They're amazing and actually care :)
Number two... listen to Elena. She knows her stuff.
xoxo!!
Number one for me... seek that therapist! Your school probably has one available for free! They're amazing and actually care :)
Number two... listen to Elena. She knows her stuff.
xoxo!!
*~*Jaci*~*
The more things the change, the more they're still the same.
hey girl,
I'm excited to get an update from you, but I wish that things were working better for you. I've had a semi-frustrating band experience myself, so I can relate to a lot of it. I agree with what a lot of the others said about talking to a psychologist, it sounds like you may have some things that you could work through to help you get a little more of what you wanted from your band.
I think too I want to stress that none of us are perfect, and its really good for all of us to be able to share the goods and the bads together. Ultimately, no one wins when we isolate ourselves. So, I applaud your courage for being real, and I think you should keep it up. jump back on the bandwagon with us that are still fighting, and lets regain some ground together.
we're here for you. I'm here for you. Let me know how I can help.
Ann
I'm excited to get an update from you, but I wish that things were working better for you. I've had a semi-frustrating band experience myself, so I can relate to a lot of it. I agree with what a lot of the others said about talking to a psychologist, it sounds like you may have some things that you could work through to help you get a little more of what you wanted from your band.
I think too I want to stress that none of us are perfect, and its really good for all of us to be able to share the goods and the bads together. Ultimately, no one wins when we isolate ourselves. So, I applaud your courage for being real, and I think you should keep it up. jump back on the bandwagon with us that are still fighting, and lets regain some ground together.
we're here for you. I'm here for you. Let me know how I can help.
Ann
As someone told me lately, everyone deserves the chance to fly!
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