update

Sorry that it took me so long everyone. We got good news the other day my dads work got a big order so they are told that they will be workin till at least Feb. 15th my surgery is schedualed for Feb. 4th so I will get it in before he gets laid off if that happens. Hopefully they will get more jobs and he will be able to keep his job but as far as surgery goes fingers crossed he will have a job till the 15th. My mom is also startin to come around a little bit she is at least able to be in the room when I am talkin to other people about surgery. So I think that the time will come. I think that everyone was right when they said that when she realizes that I am goin to do it with or without her support that she figures she might as well support me I know she don't agree with what I am doin but that is not what I am askin for. Anyway thanks for all the kind words and advise things are goin to go well I have no choice but to stay postitive. The thing that is worring me is being alone during the hospital stay and not havin any calls or cards or visitors but I will be ok. my best friend said that it might be a relaxing thing not to be botherd but I think that I would just get lonely and depressed. I have been reading peoples blogs and reading about their bad hospital stays that worries me too. But I got a long time to worry about them things. Hope that everyone had a good holiday!! Happy almost 2009 it will be a new life for me and I can't wait!!.
~Valerie~