Impatient

Been looking up so much stuff online, reading so many people's stories and experiences, looking at before and after pictures, reading WLS related books, marking off things in cook books I have, making an effort to eat less and drink more water....
I've started having dreams about the surgery.
I'm getting so impatient.  I waited a year since I had my first referral (I went back and got a different referral to a surgeon with a much shorter waitlist) but i still have another 7-9 months or so to wait till when my surgery date would be.
In a way I feel like I need the time.  My consult is in November this year...2 1/2 months away.  I would be feeling kind of overwhelmed if that was my surgery date...so many things running through my mind in preparation.  But I'm getting so anxious and want it to be sooner.  The average wait in my area is several years, so I shouldn't be complaining...but its so mentally taxing to sit back and wait, and read about everyone else's progress.  I want that to be me.  I feel greedy for feeling this way, but I kinda feel like some parts of my life are at a standstill between now and then.  Just nothing else going on.  Bored of how things are perhaps and unable to move forward until my "new life" has begun.

Sorry for the rant...just getting frustrated I guess.

I can understand how impatient you must be feeling... there are many in my support group who are going on to the two year mark.  During their wait, they're focusing on the issues that caused them to become obese.  Have you looked into therapy?

I'm almost three years out and just now seeking help in the whys and hows and what I dids.  Its eye opening... I'm a believer he he.  I thought I could do everything on my own, and with the help of my therapist, I know its ok to ask for help.  She's amazing!

I think the way you are feeling is normal. I know that when i was going through the process i would get almost mad, more than just jealous when people that started the process after me, and had their date or even their surgery before me. it will all come in due time. look at the bright side, when it does become your turn, you will be so prepared, and know how to use your tool correctly. novemeber will come before you know it. try not to dwell on how far it is away. make sure you take pictures and measurments NOW! Before you loose even a pound. good luck, and keep your chin up!
-Jennifer

I know it sucks but it is totally normal, before my surgery i was addicted to looking at peoples before and after pics. I spent so much time on OH and in the long run it really helped because i totally knew what i was getting myself into. It will go by quick and before you know it you will be on the losers bench :)

Hang in there sweetie, and there is no reason to be "sorry," for the "rant." I posted a millon such posts when I was waiting for my surgery. It sucks having to wait so long for this surgery that could save your life. I agree with everyone else use this time to research the procedure as much as possible, and to uncover the reasons behind your compulsive eating. I really didn't do that before surgery, and am having to do it now. Don't worry, your surgery will be here before you know it. Soon you'll be looking back and thinking how much time has passed.
Best wishes and ((((((HUGS)))))))

I've met alot people who had to wait like you and in the end they are thankful for it. Personally I wish I had waited. From the time of my first appt. with the surgeon until the day of surgery was 2 months. And while I am so thankful for my surgery now (i'm 5 months out) In the beginning it was really hard and I regretted having it done so quickly. I wish I had taken more time to prepare myself for all the changes that would ensue. So If I were you I'd take the time to prepare myself because it is as much an emotional change as a physical and lifestyle change. Best of luck! =]]

Thanks everyone...I appreciate it.  Its all pretty much the same way I think.  I know I will be glad it took time so I can prepare...even now I am thankful for the preparation time I have. 
Its just still frustrating in its own way because I have to wait.  I want to wait, but it sucks to wait if you know what I mean!
There are days when I feel ready and wi**** was in 2 days, and other days that I'm glad its months away.  I think it just depends on the day and how much time I spend thinking about it / worrying about it / wishing for it / contemplating which things in my life will change and how,etc.