10 days out...having mental issues!!

Hey all, Im 10 days out im feeling great. I started the gym today i did 20min in the treadmill i will do longer every day. Im finally getting full nigt sleep. But I am having some mental issues haha that sound funny! Anyways I was always a closet eater, i didnt really hide but you  know......I am a binge eatter. I feel like i could just make some pasta and eat it all!! I am not hungry at all i feel like my head is taking me over. I am dealing with it and i am aware so it wont happen but i am deff struggling here. I go to the doctors friday and hopfully i will get the ok to go to puree. Once i will get there i will be ok. My other issue is my boy travels alot, when he leave i go on a binge which i have been controling before this point. But he has been home for my surgery but he is leaving next monday and im really worried about how im going to feel and this time he will be gone for almost a month. I am going to see my theripist wed, so i will talk about this all but its weighing me down here. I refuse to fail at this anymore!1 Im staying strong but its just getting to me............

This is the really sucky, hard part.  The early post-op weeks are difficult because of all the adjustments and then you add on top of that the fact that you can't use your usual coping mechanisms.  Keep yourself busy, find a new, productive hobby, treat yourself to a pedicure, whatever it takes to keep you from resorting to binging when you boy is gone.  When you go see your doctor, see if he/she can refer you to a good therapist/counselor who is familiar with the issues post-ops face (such as addiction, eating disorders, body dysmorphia and so on).  I worked with an excellent counselor post-op and it really helped me. 

You can do this. 

Just to make you feel better this is the hardest part post-op...I would go to the internet and read every food website i could find. For some reason this was like therapy to me...Mother's day was shortly after my surgery and I made a big dinner for my Mom and Grandma and it was so good for me....you may not be able to do that. But I do know what you are going through...Stay strong it gets better!!!

First of all, congrats on taking such a courageous leap to reclaim your health!

Now, welcome to the reality of post-op life, where the real work begins.  I, too, struggle with emotional eating, binge eating and eating in secret, as do MANY of us here on OH.  And I use the "present tense" when saying this because I firmly believe that, like addicts in recovery, food-users and food-abusers have to committ to a lifetime of recovery.  You're smart to recognize your trigger situations and to utilize a therapist to help.  Keep working any tool you can to break free of the binge eating.  In the long run, you could self-sabotage and regain all the weight you lost, so it's vital to develop alternative habits NOW while your pouch is working at its maximum.

I'd also recommend reading anything by Geneen Roth, especially "When Food Is Love" and "Feeding the Hungry Heart."  They are incredibly helpful in working through emotional/binge eating.

Take care,
Heather

thanks so much for your words of wisdom. It deff helps alot to know people are going through the same Also the ook ida is great will be going to get them thanks s much.

Had to say - I LOVE Geneen Roth!  She completely gets it.  A piece she wrote called "The Limits of Thin" really inspired me and resounds with me still.  I second the recomendation.

Ok so i ordered the books today for like .75 cents online which was a even bigger plus but if it helps i dont care how much it is. Im doing much better today. Im hoping every stage will get easier. I refuse to give in to my devil i will beat it......Thanks everyone for your feedback I am still kind of new here but i have come to find a new and comfortable family!