im not gonna do the surgery...

I started going thru the routine of pre-op testing and stuff about 11 months ago while i was still going thru divorce and got up to 293 lbs.  after the divorce, and i got my life back, i became a much happier person. since then, i dropped 40 pounds....30 pounds, then once i noticed it i lost 10 more last month. 
 i dont know...the surgeon told me to lose 15 pounds to shrink my liver before surgery, and i was so motivated, i lost the 15 pounds and then just kept right on rollin'!

i was laying in bed last weekend thinking to myself, 'if im losing weight so easily right now on my own, then wtf i need to do the surgery for then?'
with every pound i lose, i gain the desire to lose more, and my lack of willpower has amazingly disappeared and no longer crave sh*t food...maybe God sent me a miracle cuz' maybe i would have died from the surgery? i dont know...but now i know that i can easily do it on my own now that i got all the stress and the suffering out of my life, and decided to go at it with exercise and diet...it failed me before buit i never lost this much weight either. i would usually be done after 10 pounds lol!
i dont know...i seemed to have changed and grown up a lot this past year and maybe this is working finally because for once in my life, i am ready to lose it.
i looked in the mirror this morning and saw that my ass is practically down to a normal perky size...my face and arms and upper legs have thinned and even at 255, my inner thighs arent touching anymore (im not big boneded lol)...i see a feminine figure coming thru and i like it!
so thats it...im not getting the operation. dont feel like i need it anymore.
i took it on as my last resort after so many failures, but lately my body has been behaving....actually feels like my metabolism has become more faster because i ate big macs twice this week (period craving)  and still lost 5 pounds...my mom thought a while back i was sick and didnt know it so i went to the doc and my blood work came back marvelous and my diabetes has cleared up!
i never been a stress eater...but my ex hubbo made me work full time during my pregnancy up until 2 days b4 delivery so i went to fast food for convenience everyday.
i was never really thin, but my body always yo yos on its own and my tummy is really my only trouble spot.

some other reasons for me not going with it are, i dont wanna lose my hair...i want to still treat myself to a chinese buffet and dairy queen once in a while...i want to have a baby in a year...and i cant eat pureed anything! lol! i am the pickiest thing and i would probably end up throwing up everytime that straw goes into my mouth.
i dont need stomach shrinkage cuz i dont overeat as it is....im just genetically ******i just need something to limit the amount of cals being absorbed because again, im genetically ******so i would only end up losing most of my stomach for nothing. i just want something to battle the way my body seems to hold onto even the smallest bit of calories.
i wish all of u the best of luck and pray that i dont regret this later looool!

congrats and I wish you all the luck to keep on losing!!!!!!!

That is amazing.  You are doing really well and I totally support you and hope you are successful with this.  If you aren't then hey, WLS will always be there for you, but if you can do it on your own that is ideal.  I hope things continue to improve in your life.  You can totally do this.

Congratulation. It sounds like you are totally sure of your descion. Thats good! You shoukd never do something your not comfortable with. Best wishes!

You've done wonderfully!  Congratulations on a job well done...but please don't leave us.  Obesity Help isn't just for surgical weightloss.  I enjoy your company!

Its wonderful that you have been so successful on your own. The surgery really truly is 'the last resort' and you have found another way - congrats. I wanted to address a few other things just for others reading your post -  losing hair - I lost barely any hair at all, it only lasted two months chinese buffet - I can eat if I choose dairy queen - I can eat if I choose... I actucally prefer chikfila or mcdonalds ice creams pureed foods - never had to eat any baby - for RNY patients they say to wait 18 months but many many many people get preggers before then.... no baby for me right now thou!!!