bad night

Tonight was my first night out at a party for a close friend, in which I hadn't seen a lot of people since my surgery.  Don't get me wrong, I got lots of compliments and all, but I see now why I needed this tool, and I never want to act the way I did tonight. I guess I just need some reassurance that a lot of people screw up, but you can get back on the horse again and keep doing what you are supposed to. My intention was not to drink (I drove my brother, because I didn't want to drink at first), but once I got there, it was really easy to say, well just one or two.  I must say it's completely different the way I felt and I feel crappy now, from the couple of drinks I had (beer), and the few potato chips I'd had... I'm so angry at myself for screwing up my streak of really sticking to my guns about making the most out of these first 6 months.  Please say that this is normal and I can make it through.  I just hate the way I feel right now, physically, and emotionally for faltering this way.  Anyhow, I just wanted to write this down...and hopefully I'll never end up in this position again.

Aw, it's okay hun...we all screw up every now and then....just remember how it made you feel this time and hopefully you will be able to steer clear from situations like that in the future!  But, it's OKAY!!!!!  Don't beat yourself up too much over it!!!  I know I've made some really dumb decisions since surgery when it comes to drinking, smoking, and food....but I sat down and re-evaluated the choices I was making and realized I needed to change what I was doing and have been doing much better the past few weeks!   Also, just be careful when it comes to the alcohol....we talked about how much sooner it hits us post-ops than it used to....AND, even when we feel like we might be completely sober, we could be above the legal limit.  The leader of the support group mentioned that even one drink can skyrocket us above the limit even if we can't feel it....scary stuff!!!  Just be careful driving after having even a drink.   Feel better!  It will be okay! Kim

Just wanted to give (((HUGS)))  Kim said it best and I've got nothing to add but I don't want you too dwell on it.  It happened, it's over, you can move on now =)

I wouldn't beat yourself up over this at all! All experiences are live and learn! As long as you have learned something from this experience then even though you are feeling crappy about it now, you'll know how to hadle the situation again when it comes up. Look at the triggers in the situation and figure out how you can react differantly to them next time! It is very hard to be young and not to drink when ALL your friends do! I have told myself that if I am planning on driving that I am not goin to drink(reasons given in the previos poster's response) and that is it...no exceptions. I do this b/c I have a real hard time having one or two and I would rather 'save' all my drinks for one occasion(weird and twisted, but that is how I am!) I would also try a different drink than beer. I like cranberry and vodka with a lot of ice and a twist of lime, no carbonation but still plenty of sugar=( Also I try to bring things I know that I can have to a party. The hostess thinks you are being nice...but there is always my reasons behind it! I know that I will be able to eat something! I love soy chips and there are some really good baked chips out there. Now some may criticize the baked chips but when you consider the alternative it's way better!  Just remeber that tomorrow is a new day and another oppurtunity to start over back on track...you can't change what has happened but you can surely learn from it! Keep your chin up, one slip up in how long? You are fine!!!! Hope this helps! ~Jacky

Thanks for the words ladies!  Just to make it clear, I didn't end up driving back home even if I thought I was ok.  My sister picked me up... Anyhow, thanks again.  Today was a much better day!

I'm glad today was better for you :)