Short Whine..anyone got any cheese?

I hurt.  I have maxed out on lortab and I can't take anymore until 5-6 tonight and the hernia thing still hurts a lot.  I am trying to work on a serious project proposal but all I can think about is keeping my back straight so the hernia doesn't move, because when it moves it scrapes against my rib cage or something.  I go to see my surgeon about it tomorrow or else I would seriously consider going to urgent care just to get a shot of torridol (heaven in a needle for pain control if you ask me - lasts for like 6 hours and doesn't have the brain fog side effects of lortab - and it sucks that I know that out of experience with all kinds of different serious pain relievers) if nothing else.   It doesn't help that I am in the middle of a very hectic week with exams and research papers and semester project proposals due..ick.  I am working my butt off and still having a difficult time keeping up - that is neither here nor there - just a mitigating factor in my medical mess. I am also a little tired of surgery and hospitals and doctors in general.  Every time it looks like the end it really isn't.  This has been going on since last May and that is just a very long time to be in some state of unhealthyness, sometimes serious unhealthyness. So there you have it.  I am discouraged.  Tomorrow I'm going to go see Dr. Baker so he can tell me I have a hernia and schedule me for yet another surgery (which means my much anticipated and longed after bubble bath (haven't been able to have a bath since August due to open wounds and healing incisions) will have to wait for another 3-4 weeks for THAT incision to heal...).  This brings the total since last August to 4 and my lifetime total to 6.  And I am not quite 22 yet.  Don't get me wrong, I do not regret my bypass and I probably never will, but this is just something people need to be prepared for.  I am an anomaly, so it isn't very likely (and heaven forbid) that many people will have to go through what I have been through, but I am proof that stuff like this CAN happen, even to young, otherwise compliant and healthy people.  Just be aware of that and take it for what it is worth. Okay, end whine and back to regularly scheduled programing. What is everyone else up to today?  Cheer me up with happy adventure stories and plans for this weekend.     

Amy...you've been through more than many people triple your age. I hope this hernia is repaired quickly and is the last ordeal for you. It's hard to enjoy weight loss success if you're in surgeries, dr. apt's , and horrendous pain all the time. I hope you heal quickly so that you can start enjoying your new life! Linsey

ok ill try to be the bright side of things.....if everything has ALREADY gone wrong....things can only get better from this point on right?!!? so jus think of it that way!  

Amy hope everything gets better soon. Hang in there girl. You have such an amazing spirit in the face of all this.'

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Well, you know I admire and respect you throughout all this ridiculousness.  I can't even begin to imagine how frustrating this is.  Unfortunately, there's no medal in life for going through so much with so little in return (your kingdom for a bubble bath) but if there were you'd surely be a candidate.  (hugs)

Amy, sorry you're having such a tough time of it. I understand and I hope things start going better after you see your doc. Take care of yourself! L

Amy, As always, I am amazed at your seemingly awesome attitude in the face of all the crap you have been through.  You truly are an inspiration.