less than 2 wks to go, what were your pre-op thoughts ?

Okay Guys, My surgery is scheduled on 02/12/08. My journey started last April. I have been working so hard to get here and now that it is actually a reality all types of feelings and thoughts are coming. I am wondering if this is normal. I haven't went under the knife yet and already I am mourning food. I blew the last meal syndrome out the box and indulged until I was damn near comatose  I am now on a pre-op diet until my big day. I gave up cigarettes ( I miss them so much) The only reason I quit was because I wanted this surgery more than smoking. I have given up my other comfort ( junk food) I know that there is a pot of gold at the finish line and what I am doing is for a better and healthier me. I am wondering if any of your went through the same thing. I am so emotional and moody and on edge. I feel sad, happy, mad, hopeful and a mixture of other things. I am wondering what this is. Jazz

Many people have your same feelings right before surgery. When it came down to the two weeks before my surgery I got nervous and constantly questioned my decision. I was scared I would die, scared I would be the one the surgery didnt work for, scared I would fail.  I didnt really mourn food but did have 2 weeks before the 2 week pre-op where I ate anything and everything. We all think "oh I will NEVER be able to eat this again" and the post-ops will say its not true, you never believe them, but it is really not true... :-)  I think we go thru such an emotional roller coaster before surgery for many reasons. First the surgery is 'elective' so you are choosing to have it. With that brings the "how did I ever let myself get this way" thoughts. Also you are getting ready to go thru a major life change which is always scary no matter what you are doing!  Just know you arnt the first and you wont be the last. Also kudos on stopping smoking!

Jennifer Thanks so much!!  I am just truly going through alot of things and I appreciate your words. I know we all have let food have a hold of us at some point, and it's like right now I feel it is rearing it's ugly head like never before. I think about it all the time now like never before. I get worried like, am I making the right decision ? Will I be successful ? Will I go crazy with not having the freedom I have with it now... and then I tell myself to relax, take a chill pill, this is for the better me. Thanks Again, Jazz

Hey Jasmin, This is normal.  It stinks, but it is normal.  You are going through with a life changing, major surgery and you would be foolish if that didn't seem like a big decision.  What you stand to gain is worth it though.  In the time before surgery just take time to prepare yourself for surgery.  Practice taking your time to eat meals.  Stop drinking with meals.  Develop a routine with vitamins and exercise.  I hope you're able to find peace with your decision.  I wish you the best with your pre-surgery diet and with your surgery!

I can't really add anything to the advice already given. I just wanted to let you know that I went through the exact same thing, even quitting smoking...I just want to let you know that yes it is hard, but not as hard as waking up everyday feeling crummy physically and emotionally because of my weight. Good luck!

If it makes you feel better I'm freaking with you.  It's the 2-week-freak.  Totally normal.  Best of luck with your surgery!

I felt fear.  I didn't know if I was too young, or being too hasty.  I wondered if I tried dieting enough. I did mourn food.  As much as the pre-op diet kind of sucked, I think it did put me in a good place before surgery.  It gave me a 15 pound head start on my weight loss and prepared me for the weeks immediately after surgery.  Sometimes I still miss certain foods, but it's not that big of a deal.  I know that I COULD physically eat those foods if I really wanted to, but I really want to focus on my weight loss. I can't imagine giving up two addictions at the same time though, that must be rough.  Good luck though!

Thank you guys so much!! I appreciate it so much!! I have been getting in routine mode for the past  week or two until surgery day. I feel much better with the support and encouragement you guys offer. Jazz