FREAKIN' OUT

Hey guys I'm new the 20's forum. My surgery date is August 20th and I'm FREAKIN' out about it. I'm worried that I made  a wrong decision. I'm scared that I'm doing something so drastic at such a young age, which will affect my body for the rest of my life! I'm 27 and I've been researching the gastric bypass for 6 years, but now that I'm about to have it, I'm scared. In my moments of sanity, I know that what I'm doing is necessary, but I do have long bouts of insanity where I freak out and question my decision. This is one of those moments. Did anyone have a similar experience pre-surgery? Thanks. TJC

Hi TJC! Welcome to the boards! Yes, everyone was freaking out before surgery. Every single one of us. It's a totally normal, healthy reaction. And I'm glad I forced myself through my moments of insanity because this is THE BEST THING I have ever done for myself. I can't imagine living life like I was. And it sounds like that in the past 6 years you haven't been able to accomplish what the surgery will on your own. Just like the rest of us. Be courageous through the terrifying moments, it will pay off in huge dividends. Heart, C

Hey and welcome to the 20' s board! What you are feeling is TOTALLY normal. I am 22 and had surgery in March. I was so scared that i was having this surgery at a young age but i know what helped me was all the older people on the boards saying they wish they had the surgery sooner and that was their only regret! Now that i'm down almost 80 pounds since surgery and almost 90 pounds since my highest weight i feel better than ever and know that it was worth it. You never know what's going to happen down the road but i know that weight wise my body will last long now! You will do great and after your surgery you will wonder what you were so scared about!

Thanks so much ladies. I'm convinced! I really want to do it, so I have to hold on and keep the faith. Thanks again. TJC

HI TJC!  You are definitely not alone in this.  I'm having my surgery in 2 weeks.  I'm a total wreck.  Cold-feet, freaking out that I this is the right decision for me.  And like you.. I get some moments of clarity and know that this is what I want.  I think it wouldn't be natural if we didn't have our freak-outs.   I'm also in a rut right now and seem to binge eat!  It's like I can't control myself.  I have no idea what is going on with my mind/body.  I was doing so well up until a few days ago and now that I'm so close it's all collapsing around me.

Not to add any fuel to the fire...but if you are freaking out perhaps you should listen to your inner voice? It's normal to have some fear but a lot of doubt may mean a reconsideration. Did you consider the LapBand as opposed to the RNY? The band is less invasive and doesn't require any alteration of your biology. Just a thought. Good luck with whatever you decide.

Thanks for your concern.  I guess "freak-out" was too strong a word.  My freak-outs are mostly due to having the surgery go wrong.  I've had a major complication with a minor surgery before, so that's what's got me freaked.  But I try to look at that like I look at winning the lottery.  It doesn't happen all the time.   The Lapband isnt covered in Ontario.  I was first looking into this.  I know I'm ready to have this surgery. I'm just scared of the complications.  I lost a whole breast to the last complication.