woof! Pay me no mind...just ranting!!!

Okay....so maybe I'm just in a mood but sometimes I feel like I stick out soooooo bad at my job. I work in a billing office and just about everyone here is always talking about healthy food, exercising, how they need to loose 5 pounds...etc. Now you may be saying to yourself....Sunshine that is a good thing! Eh? Well, yes it is but I can't help feeling like I am on display as the creature "they" don't want to turn into. Maybe it's all in my head...maybe my insecurities are finally getting the best of me...or maybe I am right to assume most people in this office have said something negative about me at one time. Not that I am innocent - I have made my own remarks. A lot of people just assume that if you are fat...you are lazy...sloppy...unmotivated - the list goes on and on. BUT on a positive note they think...and this is my favorite line of all times...you have such a pretty face. This is just a slap in my face every time I hear it. I am just fed up with being treated the way "we" get treated...at times. Sorry for ranting & I'm not trying to throw a pity party - everyone has their own problems and wars they have to fight. I just didn't want this to be another bad day. And sometimes I like to talk to someone (OH world) who actually understands...even if it's just a little.

Hi Sunshine! Wow, somebody else here in Charlotte that is having surgery and is not 20 years older than me! I know exactly how you feel. The place I work at there are a handful of women my age who are RAIL THIN. Then there is me and my best friend. The fat chicks. She is thinner than I am, but still we are the Plus Sized ones. We sit back with our pathetic little Low Cal/Fat/Carb/Taste meals watching these rail thin chicks eating big macs and shakes. Then they pinch an inch on their thys or stomach (HELLO THAT'S CALLED SKIN!) complaining their getting "fat" and how they will die if they have to buy a size 10!!! I've gotta have a surgery to even HOPE to wear a 10 one day... So beleive me you are not alone, I'm right there with ya. I know what you mean about the fat stereo types. I plan on changing jobs once I am close to goal. I've worked in this office with most of these people for 7 years and I don't want to forever be living down the persona they have labled me with. Krista

Thank you fellow Charlottetian! (Is that a word?...lol) Keep in touch!

Im in Charlotte as well!! Had surgery with DrM on 6/20/6

Wow! I am glad to know I am not the only one my age going through this here in Charlotte. There are two other girls at the support group meetings I go to who are my age, but they have known eachother for a while. They are both a few years out and they are very click like. They are my age, they have been through the things that I am going through, but they are both very stand off-ish towards me. Social, nice, but distant all at the same time. The older folks in the support group have all been very warm towards me, but outside of the surgery factor, our lives are very different. Their kids are my age, mine is going to be 3 this month. While they are all very nice people and their advace has helped me, it's just not the same as somebody my own age. Ya know? It would just be nice to get together with other people who understand and can relate to what I am going through because they are going through it too. Feel free to e-mail me. I'd love to chat with both of you. Krista

I am in Charlotte and 27 had surgery with DrMelkonian on 6/20/6... if you need anybody to talk to hit me up!!

Hey! How are things going with you? Have any advice on my upcomming psych evaluation?

Hi Sunshine, I know the feeling. But, let me tell yah, it doesn't get any better. First they talk about you when your fat. Then you lose weight and they find something else to talk about. I also know what you mean about the "Pretty Face" crap! Take a look at my profile and at the very bottom you will see a bunch of "Head Shots". That is because I had "Such a Pretty Face" that is all I would take pictures of. My best friend gained weight after having 2 babies. Now I am the skinny one and she is the one with weight on her. Every time we go out, at least one person says "You have such a pretty face" to her. I want to throw up. That hurts me, and I know it hurts her. Also, they will come up to me and say how good I look, and then RIGHT AWAY say to Shanna, "Oh, you look good to". WTF, that is just as rude as say, your ugly, or your fat but you have a pretty face. So it never gets any better. What I am getting at is, let them worry about them selves. Worry about you. You are better than that! And hunnie, you are pretty from the inside out from your head to your toes. Just remember that! Erin 310/156/151

Thanks babes! Looking good by the way... I hope I am as big a loser as you!!