I hate shopping...

I hate shopping......its no fun when I am so big.......yesterday I went to get something to wear for a friend wedding......I got so sad once I got home, I hit me so hard. When I was paying at Lane Bryant, I felt like the teller was judging me. I am size 24....the biggest I have ever been.....I got home and went to sleep right away.....lets not say how much my feet were hurting.....I hate me right now, I hate how I have let myself go, I cant ever reconize myself..........mad, I tell you so mad.

Well, you are pre-op, so there is a light at the end of the tunnel. You are the same height as me and I was a 26/28 at my highest. So I understand. No one is judging you honey, I think it's us judging ourselves. I remember those self-destructive rants, don't do it! It'll just get you down further into a hole, and then I would binge. That was my downfall! You will get through this. I checked out your profile, you are a hottie! Jen

Your words are so great to me, I still feel the pain from last night shopping. I am going to start to do after work workouts with my friend. I just got off the phone with her and told her how I feel. She help me get back on the ball and not let last night make me fall deeper into the hole, I so hate. And now reading this thank you sooooo much. I want to stay strong, and not give up. I don't want to get depress, but I am mad at myself. It's more like one moment at a time. Thank you so much..

Lisy, Girl I know what you are goin through! When I had my surgery I was 298 and I am 5'7". So we are very similar. Have faith! I am 8 months out and have lost 117 lbs. This will be you! You are very pretty! Take a deep breath. It wont be long. Keep us posted on what happens at your appointments. Krista

so I read the first comment and now I read yours, and by now tears are waiting to come out. I cant say enofe How this site can help people like us. I thank GOD for people like you guys.....Krista thank you soooo much, and thank you Jen....You guys make me strong. I can relate to you both of you. You both are very sweet...

Hey there, lemme jus tell you time will change all of that and youll totally feel diff. take care

i hear you girl! it was soo discouraging to shop pre-opp. even the temporary high from new clothes wasn't enough to get me to like what i saw in the mirror. but don't get too down on yourself! you are really pretty! hey, you should come to the support group we've got going on for all pre-and post-opps at huntington hospital in pasadena...we meet every tuesday night at 7 pm in the research building off of fairmont ave (map - http://www.huntingtonhospital.com/textandcontent.cfm?id=3687 - park in congress blgd. lot). it's a great place to meet other who've had the surgery and learn more about the realities behind the process. there's also one that meets on monday's at 7 pm if tuesday doesn't work for you. -kari

I feel your pain Lisy, but I PROMISE you are going to feel great in no time. All of these experiences will be behind you, and as a result, they will have made you more sympathetic to others with weight issues. When is your surgery date?

Hey Lisy, We ALL hated shopping when we were pre-op, I was a size 24 too and HATED shopping. Trust me, when you start dropping sizes YOU'LL LOVE IT!!!! Thing is, you'll then be broke because you'll want to buy everything in sight! Hang in there and don't let it get u down. Have u gotten a date or know when you'll be having WLS? I'm in east LA (moving to montebello next month though), you're close to me -- Alhambra, right?

Yeah, I don't think many people enjoy buying "fat clothes." I know I didn't. But after surgery, and when you reach goal weight, you enjoy being able to actually choose any of the clothing, instead of looking for clothing that is actually your size. Only thing I still hate about shopping, is spending money. :P