AHHHH! I'm goin crazy!

My insurance company is takin their sweet time to get me approved. I know the main thing to think about is how my health will change, but part of me is like, oh, its soon to be summertime, and i wanna look hot! im stressed o ut, as all 20-something girls are, and Im scared and now the people that promised to be supportive are all like, its for the best. and here i am, college educated, strong capricorn, scared spitless that i dont have the wls approved, and even more scared that i do. is this normal, to feel to conflicted??? please share....

I *never* thought the insurance company was going to approve me... I had to many things against me when I had applied. Anyways, it took me from January to April to get approved. When I got the letter I was in shock! I started crying and was doing a happy dance... then reality set in and I was freaking out and have been ever since! Since I never counted on getting approved I never thought about everything. As soon as I got the approval letter and my surgery date I started having nightmares and trouble sleeping. I was anxious at work and always on edge. The waiting part is what was killing me. Now that I have my pre-op appt next week and start the liquid diet a week after that I feel much better. I felt conflicted in the beginning, but am not now. I realized Ive done so much and lost and regained the same weight over and over again I need to try something else.

Hey there Misty, I know how the waiting can suck. Its worth it though. I wish that I felt hot, I've lost 153 lbs in the last year and still cannot say that I feel hot. I've got so much extra skin and hanging folds is disgusting. Try not to feel too conflicted though. I'd do this again every month if I had to.