OT - So much depression and I need some suggestions...

Slap me somebody - I just put this in my journal - I'm just so tired of feeling this way. I need something else to get me out of this bad bad funk. Suggestions...comments.... So...I'm depressed...just terribly depressed. Between fighting with my ex-husband (Son of Satan), arguing with my older teenager, shelling out cash faster than it's water, having my current husband feel like he's being tugged and pulled like a puppet on a string and being upset, going through counseling for 3 of us in the family, paying a huge tax bill, wondering what's happening about my promotion (if there is one), wondering if I'll ever get things back on track with my 16 year old and my mother, not being a fully functioning almost 40 year old because I'm emotionally drained....I'm just so depressed. Sometimes I wish.....well....not such great things....but this too shall pass and I will be a stronger and better person for it. I hope

Well, I'm not going to slap you, but I will loan you my "word of the year" ... that's OVERWHELMED. I don't know if the planets are in retrograde or what, but This is crazy! Are you on any anti-depressants? I've been on Wellbutrin since the beginning of February and I haven't noticed much of a difference, I crash REAL BAD in the evenings (like right around now), almost going into a panic attack. I'm thinking maybe its because I'm on the time released dosage ... but the doc said to "give it a chance" ... I'm just tempted to go off it all together. I don't know. But, I do know some people do have success with ADs, so I was just wondering if you've tried them. I wish I had words to comfort you ... I laugh because I always say this suffering "builds character" ... sheesh ... how much frickin character do we need? Please take care ... if you ever need to talk, please get in touch with me. Good luck ... Karyn

Karyn, I'm not on any meds. I'm seriously considering them...but I'm so adverse to taking pills of any sort. Just kinda an anti-pill type gal I am. Uhhh yeah..I totally hear what you're saying...I've had about enough darn character building!!!!

I'm sorry you are struggling now--sometimes it really stinks. I hope you can find help and start feeling better soon.

I'll be 38 this year and have been in therapy on and off for almost 20 years for a number of issues that have come up and have never considered myself totally "fixed". The only time I did consider myself that way was when I limped out of the doctor's office after my vasectomy!!! Trust me...I have been in many a funk and many a funk lately in the last year and I know that mine will pass too. I know from reading your many posts and your supportive replies to many of the members here that you are stronger than you give yourself credit for and should focus on that. Take some time for yourself if you are able to just sit quietly. If you can find a quiet park or woods and do it there I would suggest that or perhaps by a gentle river or creek. You might be surprised by how cleansing the quiet can be. Buck up pal and drop me a line if you need to ....I'm not online too much anymore, but I do check a few times a week to see if I have e-mails. Hope you get out of the funk soon and take care of yourself...Cap'n K-man

I'm so sorry you're going thru a rough time right now. I know how exhausting it can all be. I was on meds for depression for several years and they did really help. Now I am thankfully med free and I feel pretty good most days. Please remember there's no shame in taking meds if you need them! You just have alot going on in your life right now~I hope things calm down for you soon! Hugs, Tracy B 328/156 5'9"

I've been struggling with depression as well. It is so hard some days and I can see how it is affecting my eating. I have been feeling like maybe I need to see someone and figure out what the heck is going on. I feel like there is definete pattern....depression....eat....more depression and self hatred....eat more....etc. I don't want to sabotage myself and I feel like I am on the beginning stages of that. I still have 30 pounds I want to lose and if I stick to the program I still lose, but when I go off..... Anyway, just know that you are not alone and that I am thinking of you. Hope things get better. Like you said, they can't get much worse....although I hesitate to actually say that because they usually do if you say that . I agree that you need to take some time for yourself...even just a quiet walk or a good book....maybe a bubble bath. Whatever does it for you. Take care, Tamara 321/168/135? 2/9/05

Thru the suggestions of many on the boards, I started taking Cymbalta to deal with my mild depression, general anxiety and fibromyalgia body ache flares. In a few brief weeks, I am like the poster child for Cymbalta. My endo prescribed a 20mg dose but I actually take only about 10-15mg at bedtime (made me less tired than taking it during the day). Nausea can be a side effect, so if you take it last thing before bedtime, that shouldn't be an issue. I can't tell you how much it has helped. It even diminishes the appetite. For me it has been like a freakin' miracle drug. I too have been overwhelmed by some intense things going on in my personal life. Cymbalta works quickly (usually within a week). I say talk to your medical professional. There is no stigma to taking it that I know of ... and to tell you the truth, I no longer care! But it took me 50 years to bite the bullet and realize that pharmaceutical intervention just might help thru the tough times. Good luck and God bless!