Doing liquids for a day brought out fears I didn't know I had!

Wow! I am stunned by this! Because I have not had the kind of success I know I should have had from WLS I decided to try doing liquids for a day or 2 to get back on track....my goodness if doing that hasn't brought up some ugly feelings and fears. Bottom line, I am scared of being without food....going to work with nothing for lunch except a protein drink and 3 bottles of water? ARGH!!! Getting up in the morning and having a protein drink and a cup of decaf? *sigh* and dinner, the most stressful meal of the day for me, I need that sedation, I need to be able to tune out my screaming family, my teen aged daughter that is plucking all of my nerve strings because she misses her obese mom that didn't expect anything of her and who ate instead of yelled at her. We have a staff meeting at work, legendary for making at least one person cry. The buildup to it is almost as painful as sitting in there for an hour and listening to us rip each other apart. Getting through thursday without eating? Oh God, the horror! I have tried using exercise as a way to get through stress, and have worked out so hard during my lunch breaks that I have had to come back to the office and take tylenol to get through the rest of my day, then oh man i't s time to go home? I better go back and kick the heavy bag some more before going home....*sigh* I don't know how I am going to get through this, but I am determined to not eat solid food for the rest of today. Thank you for reading my ramble, please pray for me!