Someone pass the...

Pizza, fries, anything that I can drown away these failure feelings of life. Its sucking right about now. No its not weight related its job and the interactions there. The place I work is like a crack house...these people are the weirdest~ I am in a war with a coworker right now. I can't go into the battle zone anymore. I am feeling my old habits wanting to come back. I went to HR today to chat and find out what could be done...of course I was told I am partly to blame for this...see what you get for trying to help your boss. I don't want to be there anymore than I have to .... I have been doing my best isolating myself. And I feel miserable. I just feel like crying and eating this crap away. I keep getting these jobs that take me to these low levels and I can't stand it anymore. Why do I do this? Why can't I break this cycle. Its going to destroy me I am sure of that.....I need to take control but I don't want control of this situation....I want to get out and now and just run away. Decision made but I can't afford to just walk. Finding another job will be difficult while working there. I will need time off and that will feed the fire and stir more stuff up. I feel like I am between a rock and a hard place. The crap food may help me temporary but I need a permanent fix....Can I get a brain transplant from my surgeon instead of PS.

I hear ya. I work with a couple of bullies that know just how to push my buttons. Oh if ONLY someone could do surgery on our brains! Good luck.

That sounds really frustrating. My problem with work is boredom right now. So I want to nibble and I have been gaining weight because what I eat is bad snacks like M&M's and Cheese-its. I figure I am going to turn to food anyway, so I need to prepare and keep some legal type snacks to eat when I get the urge to nibble. I cannot go back to being obese!!! Good luck to you! -=db=-

db I understand the boredom too! I am there with the snacks....No M&Ms but its a thought! I don't want to go back to where I came. I need to find a way to stay focus and keep on track. I hate these curve balls life throws at us! Debbie