Fat for a day

Don't you wish, just for one day, that you could be your "big self" again? Just for a day... just to remember what it was like? The farther out I get from surgery, those memories of how hard life was.... breathing heavy, sweating all the time, uncomfortable.... I forget what it's like. I wish on the days when I falter that I could just go back and remind myself of how bad it was so that I wouldn't do the destructive eating that I sometimes do. Michelle

Ummmmmmmmm........I answer with a resounding NO! I never want to feel that way again!!! Every day I am acutely aware of this lifelong journey which I have embarked upon. Perhaps you can sit down, reflect on your life before WLS, and write it down for you to read whenever you feel the need?!?!?! Best, Vanessa

Hey Vanessa, How are you doing? I'm feeling a bit better. at least good enough to spend Sunday hoeing. Now I'm exhausted again because I over did a good thing and ended up with blisters and a sore back. BTW, I was hoeing in the GARDEN!!! I can tell tomorrow is B-12 shot day though. Makes me a bit concerned for when I start getting them on a monthly basis rather than weekly. Pat

Good to hear you're feeling better! I have been hoeing too! (in the garden *yawn*) Wow, am I sore! I'm not finished! The landscaping here is HUGE as we are on a corner lot. But, it's still smaller than the acre I used to tend so I guess it's OK. So, here I go...off for more outside work. At least the weather has been kind. Keep in touch, ~V~

lol ... glad you clarified that for us Pat! Karyn

I did pick up a 75 pound dumbell in each hand and walk up a flight of steps. It almost killed me. Nowhere Man/PH/Jay

Jay! I've been working in the garden. I bought some 40 pounds bags of soil. WOW! They felt like they weighed more than ME at my weight now. I couldn't believe what a difficult time I had carrying ONE bag. My baby weighs 30 pounds and I think often that I used to carry FOUR of her around with me ALL DAY AND ALL NIGHT long. That blows me away...but I'm accustomed to carrying her so the 30 pounds on the hip isn't as noticeable as was the 40 pounds bag of mud! It really is amazing that I even existed carrying around that weight. How did I even move? Thanks for helping to put this into perspective! Best, ~V~

Michelle, I look at others that are where I use to be and remember all to well how it feels. Its not good. I don't want to go back...ever. The breathing was bad, walking was an effort. It was hard, I was hard! I remind myself of these things all the time. I get on that scale and make myself look at the numbers...if they are up we do something about it ASAP! No don't ignore it because its water weight like I use to do.....I agree the further out we get the more we think we are normal and can do whatever. A slap back to reality has to happen to me every now and then! Debbie

Michelle, Even though the others, so far, have disagreed with you, I totally understand what you're saying and think I would say "yes." It's not that I've ever found myself taking my weight loss for granted (I don't think I'd ever totally do that), and I haven't forgotten "from whence I've come," BUT I do feel discouraged, defeated, and unmotivated sometimes, which affects my eating behavior. I think one day in my old body would be a TREMENDOUS boost & motivator! But I pray that it never, never comes true. Thanks for an interesting question! Jo 295/150ish (at goal)

I understand what you're saying, but NO WAY would I ever want to go back to that for one day, one hour, one minute. I'll never forget how it felt inside and out~that will be with me forever. As another grad said "I will always have a 328lb woman sitting on my shoulder". Tracy B 328/159 5'9"