Keeping it honest - Tue/Wed

Ok I'll combine two crappy days into one lol. Today wasn't great and I know tomorrow won't be wonderful either. Not bad....just not great. Today I've had: cheese sticks My Cherry Cheesecake Parfait Pie (1/10 slice - 1/8 was TOO much!) Dill pickles...so far good, yes? And then it goes downhill - whole wheat toast with mayo. A peanut butter and mayo sandwich, a grilled cheese sandwich. It was a bread day! Ugh. Glad I don't do THAT often! Tomorrow am going to the movies with my kids, so I KNOW I'll eat a bag o' popcorn with double buttter I do that 2 times a year. A major indulgence! I figure that will max out ALL my calories for the day lol...so umm probably some cheese sticks and I'll chew on a piece of meat. How'd you do today and how's tomorrow shaping up for you? Hugs, Toots

hi toots lets see stuck at a court house all day monday .. had cafetria food can i say wls unfriendly food? bag of sunchips was starving by 9 am had to give up food i brought no food allowed so i had to eat thiers..go look at yogurt loaded with sugar..cereals sugar high no bagels for me ..no starchy stuff i wanted but ended up eating sun chips ate half a ham sandwich on rye wanted soup till i saw a old lady pick up the laddle n sniff it..eww that was my till 4 o clock got home had a bowl of homemade soup still not satisfied about a hour later decided to eat 7 pringles and had a cup of chai tea later on i had a bowl of oatmeal yesterday started good had half english muffin with pb for breakfast yogurt mid day chicken chile for lunch got home ate special k bar cup of coffee dinner there were 3 things to eat i ended up having half a bologny n cheese sandwhich on oatmeal bread woke up in middle of night ate a bowl of oatmeal oh fruit in between a otrange apple n banana today hope it wiull be better i seem to be on a carb frenzie dam winter i hate it all i want to do is have carbs n im trying to eat the good ones yucjjjjjjkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

oh lord do I sympathize! What IS it about winter that makes carbs soooo wickedly tempting! I crave them SO bad lately. Oatmeal, bread, crackers in soup, etc. Ugh. Crap. LOL We CAN do this - yes?

toots im trying real hard about those damm carbs..what kills me is 3 years ago after i had the surgery i was so dilegenmt about my eating and maybe im eating like a normal person does now? the only thing i dont eat everyday is candy ..but when i crave some licorice i will eat a few strips and i dont dump on sugar any more or even sugar alchol.. ugh i guess its going to be a killer till the sun comes out and weather is salad s n protien no comforting stuff

I am dying for FRESH vegetables! What's in the store isn't exactly what you'd call quality food - ya know? Ugh.

Hope you start to feel better Isn't it crazy after all of our hard work and daily head talks that we still turn to comfort foods!!! Tho I have to admit that I had never heard of a peanut butter & mayo sandwich I love PB, and mayo, but together.....just not so sure about that Again, take care and I hope today is better Jesi

Peanut butter and mayo was an invention born of poverty. When I was little we ran out of jelly and me and mom didn't like just pb on bread so she played around with differnt things. We discovered we love pb and maple syup lol - but I can't have that anymore we also discovered pb and mayo was good (mom liked it with baloney too - blech!). I need to do MORE head talk! Thanks and hope you are well!

I had a room mate who "taught me" PB and mayo. When I first turned my nose up she explained that the mayo counteracted the dryness of the PB and made it an excellent combo. She was right too! Wow, I haven't eaten that in years.

I still love it! Took a long time postop to be able to eat it though.

Yesterday was a bad, bad day for me. It was also a major wake-up call. I was in binge-mode all day; eating things I didn't even really want just to get that "full" feeling. Well needless to say, I threw up violently for the first time in a long time. It really made me step back and ask myself why I'm indulging in this self-destructive behavior. I know that I'm still grieving for my father, and I know that's part of the problem, but why am I purposely trying to hurt myself and undo all of my hard work? Some days its just really hard to accept myself as a flawed individual. Today (Wednesday) will be better. I'm starting out the day with a bowl of oatmeal with a little peanut butter mixed in. Snack will be a granola bar (if I have time - I'm working at the preschool today). Lunch - large-ish apple with aprox. 1 oz. colby jack cheese. Dinner will be meatloaf and some kind of vegetable. This grazing has GOT to end! Just keeping it real... Lelina