Keeping it honest - Monday

I won't give all the details of my boring menu today, but in order to keep it honest, I will say that i had...... a Ding Dong. Not proud, but not kicking myself either. I did it, it's done and tomorow I will not eat another. Promise. It wasn't from being stressed out or frustrated or bored or any of the other reasons that used to drive me to such foolishness. I just got it out and as I did the dishes and picked up toys and clothes off the floor I would take a bite here and there throughout the afternoon. Keepin' it honest in East Texas - where after a ten month drought we had rain yesterday!!!! whooppeee! Sally

*gigglesnort* I ate a ding dong last night!!! Must be an epidemic! Yeah on the rain!

B:Cup of yogurt with some cottage cheese mixed in. Blueberry-yum! L: String Cheese with piece of turkey wrapped around it - dippin in dijon mustard. Snack: microwave cup of soup-soup at hand. D: hamburger patty with melted swiss and couple bites of salad and a pickle. Multiple cups of coffee(it's cold here), many bottles of water, and a couple crackers. Myrtle.

Never had yogurt mixed with cottage cheese...good? Sounds like it might be. LOL on the coffee...here too! Brrr! Thanks for sharing Myrtle!

Ohhh Tooter, I was soooo bad!! I had a cup of REGULAR coffee, it was soooo good!!! I didn't eat anything for breakfast (yep another bad choice) so I guess you can say for my first feeding (which was actually lunch): a soft shell taco with beef, cheese, sour cream (not the lite either) and taco sauce. About an hour later I had 1 potato chip (I told you I was bad, so I'm gonna tell you every LITTLE thing, it's like a confessional in here yah know!!) Feeding two: Another soft shell taco with the same stuff on it!! Somewhere around in here I sneaked in a Kit-Kat Feeding three: baked chicken nuggets and baked french fries. Feeding four: about 12 pepperoni's nuked in the microwave (yep, with ranch dressing, I don't know what got into me today!!) Feeding five: some wheat thins with crunch PB OK GUYS, I WAS TRULY HONEST!! I can't figure out why I ate what I did today, because usually the whole soft shell really hurts me, but today I just couldn't get enough of it!! It was soo weird!! It was like, hmmmm maybe I should see if I can hurt myself, and it didn't hurt, so let's try that again!!! OHHH SOMEONE PLEASE STOP ME!!!

Ok, I don't want to 'condone' or encourage what you ate...or didn't eat (breakfast lol)...but I really don't see it as over-the-top bad. it's not 'good' but not awful either. 1 chip? Maybe if you get breakfast you might not want the kit kat...and maybe you'll still want it, but...lol. I don't see anything wrong with a soft shelled taco either. I eat them sometimes. I mean if you make a daily habit out of it...not good, but once in a while it's not awful choices. I think beating yourself up, does more harm than good. Guilt creates an emotional 'need' to eat. Kind of like setting yourself up to self-sabotage. Ya know? Oh well the day is screwed, I already ate XYZ - in for a penny, in for a pound, etc. Just do the BEST you CAN each meal. (((HUGS))) ok shutting up now

Toots, Well thank you for no flames!! I think that my choices were so bad, because usually the whole soft shell thing really hurts, but for some reason yesterday it didn't, so that's why I enjoyed the second one, and I just feel that old self kicking back in, where you know you like something so much you have to stuff yourself with it. usually if I had ate that much of it I would've gotten a sick feeling (I can't throw up, no matter how bad I feel). And I didn't I guess that is why I'm beating myself up about it, well that and the Kit-kat, and the regular coffee, it was just sooo good!! I'm just scared that I enjoyed the day too much and will fall back into those old habits if I don't keep it in my mind that it was an AWFUL day. You know what I mean? Call me crazy but sometimes I get really scared because I see myself craving the double quarter pounder and can visualize myself eating it, but I have to take a big step back and look at where I am and what I used to be, most of the time I have to look at my battle scars and old pics to really jolt myself, I've even logged on here and read my profile to remind me of all I went through to get here, and then think...Do I really want that double quarter pounder with cheese?? I just got to thinking about yesterday, I didn't even take one single vitamin or anything!!! Could that be why I ate like I did????

Yeah I hear where you're coming from. Nothing is good if our mind is freaked by it. Just know you CAN come here...and we won't beat you up At least not nearly as bad as you can do it yourself lol. I know I'm my own worst critic - because I know what my triggers are and what bad is for me. So yeah...I DO hear you. (((HUGS))) now go take your vitamins

Here was my day: B: Powercrunch Bar S: 2 moz sticks L: Eggbeaters omelette w/turkey, pepers, zuchini, brocolli, cauliflower. S: 1/8 cp Dry Roasted Edamame D: 1/2 turkey sandwich & cottage cheese S: SF jello w/cool-whip Cal 964 Pro 108 Carb 39 Fat 40

ooh I WANT your omelet!!! Yummmm! Thanks for sharing..looks good for you today!