and it was easy in the beggining wasnt it?

bourngorno bellas and bellos, as im in my kitchen cooking ( im taking a break) i have federal jury duty in boton this week so im preparing some dinners now in case i get home l;ate who knows i might decided to hang around inm Boston after you all know how much i love that city so dinner will be made for hubby and daughter and whenever i get home i get home.. in the beggining i swear we are so excited that we are approved for the surgery, we have the surgery and for a bout 2 years we weat like saints nothing bad touches our lips.. we might have a taste of something but lets face it our mind is in a mind set if that makes any sence.. we lose our weight people compliment us were happy we go in stores buy off the rack..we are on a big high.. then all of a sudden no more compliments about weight loss..finally people accept you that you are you you lost the weight and thats it.. ..people that dont know you or never knew you think you are a normal person and when you eat with them they think you are so disiciplined or have a small appetite.. but you well i know myself that its not the truth that i am a obese person in my mind and if i didnt have the surgery to lose weight id be someone who you probally wouldnt compliment.. ok im rambling on point of this post is i screwed up big time eating on this weejend ive been *****y cranky and i want food to comfort me.and i can remeber in the beggining i did not want food..i was like no im getting altered i want to be healthy again i want to live.. i want to be able to do it all again and then here i am and i get in i dont give a flying f$%K what im going to eat! sick huh? i dont want to gain back my weight ..i know this is a tool i know what i have to do but sometimes my mind dont click.. ive gone for therapy for eating issuees and i know what im going to have to do to maintain.. man being a newby was so easy wasnt it? and its funny i read the main message boards and they are so full of hope the way i was ..its like i lost that hope because ive done it.. well any ways im cooking very hwealthy meals today..i have a nice vegetable chicken soup simmering on the stove i made myself chicken chile i made the family reg chile which really isnt bad if you use lean hamburger im going to make a turkey breast for dinner today and make some chicken marsala also for the week so dinner will be prepared and im going to go to federal jury duty and do my civic duty and while im in town im going to go enjoy my city well every one have a hunky dory /peachy keen day enough ramblings from me hugs Lifes a ride enjoy it! JoAnn:..........................

It really was the easiest in the beginning in hidesight for sure I think, Joann. I am right around the corner it seems like I have always been this way. Sometimes I think I wish I didn't have it done because when I get sick so easy from anything my body decides to reject, but then I think of the alternative.....I do not want to be a fat person ever again and I will do the best I can each day to make sure I will not ever revisit that chapter in my life again....I really marvel at how you can cook like you do...such dedication girl!!! and

JoAnn - can you send some of that Turkey down here to Florida - sounds good and I am so exhausted just thinking of cooking for this week. enjoy Jury Duty!

Oh!! Do I ever know what you mean. It was so easy to be good those first two years. I still have to say out of sugar....because I still dump. ...but I can still eat poorly at times. Good luck at jury duty.

I was just thinking the same thing earlier today - how easy it was in the first 2 years - not much appetite or capacity for food or cravings. Boy did that all change shortly after 2 years. I want to say we should have been warned, but I think we were, but I wasn't listening. I thought, it won't happen to me! I'll be good! HA! So much for that.

I can just SO relate!!!

I can hide in a crowd. People who don't know I'm a GAP never find out unless I tell them. As far as easy,,,,,, I tried to gain ten - could only get 8 - lost three in two days and today I ahave lost another so I got 4. I know,,,why am I *****ing but man I should be able to pick up a pound or two if I want. Right? I wanted to stop at 210 and went as low as 182 then leveled off at 188 for a long time. I am now 193 and I guess that is good enough. I dunno. Maybe I'm as nuts as the broad who went to her Psych eval today with a bag of White Castles. kp @ goal

Feel proud knowing how hard you have worked to get where you are. I didn't realize, and no one could have told me preop - how much of this will depend on ME. Hunger returned in full force at 9 months and I am not one of the souls who is full after 3 bites. 3 years post and I eat lighter than the average non op, but I eat more than I thought I ever would in the early days post op. I realize how very lucky I am to have supportive family, friends and the fabuolous people here! Don't think I could have made it with out you ALL!