Hopelessly Off Track

I don't want any lectures, please, or anyone telling me 'nothing feels better than being thin' PLEASE!! I just want someone to relate to me. I don't DUMP....rarely if at all and usually over fat or dairy. Sugar has little or not effect on me. I discovered this about a year out and since then, I have gained about 20 pounds back. I guess that I just want someone else to relate to me, not lecture me, did anyone else get horribly off track? I have actually joined OA (Overeaters Anonymous) trying to confront my snacking. I appreciate the support. Tracy

I am so glad to see someone else having the same problem I am. And no, I am not gonig to lecture you because I am doing the same thing. I had RNY 7/2001 . . . .and had a tummy tuck 7/2002. I went from 242 to 150. I was so proud of myself. I had a baby 8/2005, and was very proud to have only gained 10 pounds during pregnancy. I was worried about gaining a lot of weight during pregnancy . . .and that did not end up being my problem at all. I got a new job closer to my kids, and find myself grazing all day at work snacking on anything I can get my hands on. Since around teh first of November, I am up to 174 . . .and very unhappy with myself. I know better, but I just can't help myself. I don't dump either . . .and have figured out that I can drink soda so Coke is a new addiction for me. I love splenda . . but find myself comtemplating terrible ways to lose the weight. I have tried to be bullemic and make myself throw up when I eat, but since surgery that is just not possible. I guess with no stomach valve the food passes to quickly. I have tried laxatives, not sure why, guess from my teenage years I thought it might work as a good way to lose weight. I know how you feel, and being "off track" as you call it is weighing heavy on my mind. Good luck. [email protected]

Thank you for sharing your struggles with me, there is something about knowing someone else has these issues and doesn't know what to do. I just can SEE my issues now that I CAN eat...and before...I guess you get into this mode where you think you will never be fat again and this just isn't the way the human body works. Garbage in, garbage out... Yes-it's heavy on my mind, but I know that I cannot live my life with out carbs and sugar...it's just too hard. I just want to learn to moderate it a little better and figure out my outlet. Why I want them....but I am really happy at my current weight...I want to STAY this weight...MAINTAIN! I wish I could QUIT YOU, SUGAR! Damn you! Trac

Tracy--I just wanted you to know that there are lots of people here who share your struggle. There are also many who have joine OA. Hope things improve and that you hang around to see you are not alone.

WOW!!! As I have recently stated....I am new on OH, however, I've been almost obsessive about OH> Tracy ta da da how are you??

Hi Tammy....welcome to OH. I was obsessive for a while and find myself drifting away from a valuable support tool....stick with OH. I myself am turning to multiple support venues just trying to find answers and mutual support-nothing wrong with that. Keep in touch! Tracy

Nope - ain't gonna lecture and you'll NEVER hear me say that pompous crap about nothing feeling better...if that were the case, I'd not have needed surgery to get HERE lol. Harumph.... I don't dump - I eat WAY too much crap...and yea, sometimes I lose control. The ONLY thing that gets me back in check is plain old fear - and even somedays that isn't enough. No words of wisdom - but am proud of you for three things...reaching out to others; being BRAVE and admitting the problem and going to OA! (((HUGS)))

And take your vitamins Toot

I did - I DID Thanks!

Thanks Toot....just trying to get my head straight a little too late...I should have done that years ago...and 150+ pounds before surgery. No regrets either way. I am glad you seem well! Tracy