Glad to be here ... its rough out there!
Hi Pat! I have the same build as you. I hope to eventually get to a 10 top and 12 bottom but I'd be perfectly happy in 14/16. I once weighed 138 lbs. (for about 5 minutes when I was 19) and had bones sticking out all over - plus I was always sick. I'm shooting for 185, a weight at which I know I look great and feel healthy.
I think we must be twinsies (you had your surgery one day before me) ... and I think I remember reading a post of yours and thinking "ditto ditto ditto", so we must be on the same wavelength!
All I can say is I've gotten a lot of encouragement from these boards, and I hope that I can offer the same and "pay it forward" at some point ...
You're probably being a bit too hard on yourself too, eh? Hey, I wish you luck too ... maybe we'll find a solution together.
Karyn