Exactly what are you trying to accomplish?

I've given this question a lot of thought in the past couple of days and my answer in a nutshell is "I don't know". Unfortunately, that means my answer will be a stream of consciousness sort of thing! Sorry about that! I started out wanting to achieve and maintain a healthy lifestyle and I said that I didn't care what SIZE I was, so long as my high blood pressure went away, and the edema and pain in my feet and legs, and my diabetes was normal again. Then I got to 122 lbs. and although I could still be considered healthy at 150 lbs., I don't want to be there any more. I decided that a size 8 was a good size for me and so much better than the size 20 at which I started this journey, but now that I'm a size 4, I've embraced it and I'm happy with it. I don't want to go as low as I can and then bounce back up 10-20 lbs. I want to be like some, that reach their goal and just stay there. Is that a realistic goal? I don't know that, either! I track my food intake and exercise daily using Fitday.com and I weigh myself each day. I realize that a few lbs. up or down is jus****er, but I want to be accountable. If all I wanted was to be healthy, I think I would still have to do these things. Would it make me unhealthy to gain back to 150 lbs.? Is being at this low weight and size unhealthy? These two goals are not really mutually exclusive, are they?? I can have a goal to be little AND healthy at the same time, can't I? As far as achieving my goal, well, I don't think I ever will, until the day I take my last breath. I don't want to be fat ever again and now that I'm into the maintenance phase, that goal will be ongoing. Good, thoughtful question! Jan 240/122 ~ Size 20/Size 4!!