I Had A Dream

I'm a year out, but just recently I had a dream that someone handed me a glass of soda and I took a mouthful of it before I realized what it was. So there I was with soda in my mouth and I had NO idea what to do with it. It was frightening to me and I was so surprised that I had dreamed about this especially since I was never a big soda drinker anyway. About 3-4 months ago, so that would have been about 8 or 9 months post-op, I dreamed that something had gone terribly wrong with the surgery and I was actually fat again!! I was so disappointed that I was back to my former shape and size. When I woke up I was SOOO relieved to see my skinny, somewhat bony upper body, you have NO idea!!!! I guess my dreams are giving a voice to my inner fears about my future and keeping the weight off. I just heard on Friday about a friend who had the surgery who is gaining all her weight back and is apparently well on her way to doing so!! This is my biggest fear! I wanted my friend to do so well and I guess she isn't but she doesn't post here or OH.com and I know she also doesn't go to any support groups, so possibly these opportunities give us an edge? The surgery is a tool and it's possible to outeat it! We have to use everything in our arsenal to keep ourselves healthy! Next week I'm even joining an addiction 12-step program. I figure I will do everything I can do! Jan

Hey Jan!! What a scary dream...huh?? On my 10th day in the hosp. with my RNY, I had a dream that I was gorging myself on pizza...I mean...GORGING myself on pizza!!! I actually woke up super nauseaus. I was so nauseaus that I had to ask the nurse for something to fight the sick feeling I was having. I have had more of those kinds of dreams too and they scare the crapola out of me!! Anywho...Is is OA that you are joining this week?? I am thinking of doing the same and would like to know what kind of experience you have if that is where you are going. I'll look for your post...otherwise, you can e me if you like. Keep up the good work and be good to yourself...Cap'n K-Man

Hi Jan! I have a fear of regain too. In my mind it is good that we have such fears-keeps us real. I believe I have read in the past that people participating in support groups have a much higher success rate than others. I do not have a local support group, but use OH as my support. Personally--I have a gut feeling YOU are gonna be one of the long term success stories.

I had dreams like that when I quit smoking. I still occasionally do. But I haven't had one about the WLS. OH is my support group. My local group meets on the first and third Wednesdays of the month and those are both church meeting nights. I also share your fear of regaining, though. Back a few months ago, I ran smack into several reality checks about that very issue and have been considering going back to therapy just to address "food issues." I have been about 95% compliant. Nearly 100% compliant the first year and then a bad week here and there but I worry about the long term. Perhaps the worrying is a good thing... Good luck to you as you keep yourself on course! Judi