Help...I'm out of control!!!!
I know some people tend not to eat when they are stressed, but I am just the opposite.
My oldest daughter had oral surgery on Friday (everything went fine), and my youngest is having eye surgery tomorrow. They are tightening her six eye muscles due to misalignment. I know it's not a big surgery, and on the outside I'm being calm for her, but inside I'm like spaghetti.
Since last Friday, I have eaten out of control to the point of making myself sick. I feel totally out of control.
I am sitting here drinking my protein shake, and taking my vitamins (which I haven't done since Thursday) trying to get back in control and back in the groove.
Someone just slap me. I know that eating is just making it worse, and making me feel worse.
My kids were fighting on Saturday about who sits in the front seat, and my husband looked at my oldest daughter who was whining about her teeth hurting, and said: "You're going to feel better soon. Bailey could go blind from her surgery."
Bailey started howling (she's nine). My husband felt really bad. I know he didn't mean it. But it made us all the more crazy about the eye surgery.
I just need to calm down and follow the rules. Deep breath...Deep Breath....Deep Breath....OK guys, I think I'm ready to start the day. Thanks for listening!!!!
Joni
Some of us still go back to old eating habits when under stress. I had a bad weekend too. I was sick with a cold and figured that pint of Butter Pecan would make me feel better. I could only eat two tablespoons at a time before I felt sick, but I kept going back from time to time, until the entire pint was gone. Now tell me what nut would keep repeating the same thing over and over for 2 days when it made them sick each time?
I honestly think I've eaten my last ice cream though. I finally got it. To add insult to injury it didn't even taste good so WHY did I keep going back for more? It was all about comfort food for me. Growing up my mom always gave us ice cream when we were sick.
I hope my surgeon doesn't read this post since we signed a contract saying we'd never eat ice cream again. I'm on maintenance now, otherwise I'd never have eaten it. Today it's all about protein.
Thanks all for your words of support. I did have a much better day. I did go to the gym to exercise off my stress. I'm still feeling queezy from a weekend of bad choices.
I'm still working on my liquids, and it's after 7 so I'm done eating for the day.
Deep breath. I'm planning to take two Tylenol PMs so I can sleep tonight.
Wish me luck tomorrow (and my daughter of course).
Joni
Joni,
Quick, get some Outlandish Exercise!
Dance in place to music,
Away from others, "fast walk"
A little too far, lift some cans of vegetables
To the point of exhausting your arms,
Really exhausting- Like-
"Shaky arms not able, at all, to lift one more time.
If eating, is how you respond to stress,
Loose the stress.
Not just this time, but when ever!
Exercise to the point of exhaustion of a muscle group
Will take that "residual" stress right out of you.
Your arms or legs will be a touch sore tomorrow,
But the stress won't build up as anxiety
And You'll sleep like a Log!
I was going to say-
"Sleep like a baby," but thought for some
That might bring up the image of waking up
Every 2 hours, needing to eat!
Hang in there!
Best Wishes-
Dx
DeeDee
on 10/10/05 10:24 am
on 10/10/05 10:24 am
Joni,
You don't need a slap; you need a hug! You've had a lot of stress on you lately and I think you're doing as well as can be expected in managing it. Cut yourself some slack and allow yourself to be human.
I hope things are going well with your daughters... I know how a Mom's heart aches when they're children have to go through tough times. You hang in there and use us to vent when you need to. Keep up those vitamins, lady, those girls need a healthy mom!
DeeDee
Sorry Joni to hear all that you and your family are ging through. I sure can relate to eating out of emotions. Ugh! Your not alone in this.
Don't beat yourself up either, you have enough to deal with. Take it one day at a time and reach out as much as possible.
I pray all went well with your little ones eye surgery and that your other one is recovering well from her dental surgery.
You will get through all this and it will be behind you in no time. Just concentrate on your maintaining your daily intake of protein, water and vits. and you will be feeling stronger in no time.
Be encouraged!
Jeannie