Personal Limbo

Okay, as most of you know I've been going through a lot of personal emotional drama in my life. It just seems as if the pile keeps getting heaped on. I'm trying to be "normal" by doing the things I normally do. I'm trying to post, I'm trying to send well wishes, I'm trying to find my sex drive, I'm trying to be optomistic, I'm trying to find my witty personality...at times it appears I am doing well....but honestly....I don't feel like it. Any recommendations other than counseling?

It sounds like you may be dealing with depression. Are you currently being treated for it? I know that is what I feel like if my meds need to be adjusted. There seems to be a gray overcast feeling to everything...nothing is enjoyable...etc.

many years ago I was on medication, but they figured out it was my thyroid not "depression" I also noticed when I did take it it altered my personality to my deeply evil twin. So I'm quite scared to do it. At this point though...maybe I do need to re-think the situation.

The med you were on may have just not been the right one. There are so many options now.....I know that without my meds I would be in a dark hole....wanting to hide out at home and not do anything. Life is too good for you not to enjoy it. I know there are hard things in your life, but there will be good things too....and you want to be able to enjoy them when they come.

It does sound like depression. Although with everything you have been through--who can blame you for being out of sorts. Sometimes when things get really bad--and you just keep faking yourself out to pretend they are normal--suddenly they are. I really hope things improve for you soon.

Lynda, I hope that by continuing to throw the facad (sp) of happiness up it will work. I'm also hoping that I can find a good answer on how to "deal" with life right now. Sometimes I feel so desperate I just want to stop - but then common sense gets a hold of me and says "WAKE THE HECK UP!" So I wake up and continue on and hope and pray for a better day, and if not a better day, a few better hours each day that will continue to make happiness for me and everyone around me. I'm sorry all I've been a major whiner. I will pull my head out - eventually!

Wellbutrin!! For years I kept waiting to feel "normal" again, and kept telling myself, "COME ON!! Snap out of it!!". I even went to my doc about my sex drive and she asked me if I was depressed. "No! I'm not depressed, I'm just busy, and my life is hard, and it'll be fine". Another year went by before I finally agreed that maybe I should take something. It's like a miracle. I'm "normal" again. Things make me laugh again. I enjoy spending time with my kids. I don't feel like everything is hopeless. Nothing at all has changed in my life, just my outlook on it. And you-know-what works again too which makes the dh very happy!! Sorry, this is way more info than you asked for I just wanted you to know that sometimes medication can be a good thing, and no matter how many times you give yourself pep talks, sometimes you need a little outside help! My only regret is that I waited so long in a fog. Linda