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It's after midnight here in Hoschton , Ga. I have to be up at 5:30 to go to work !! I went to bed at 10 , but couldn't sleep. I just kept thing about what I'm doing and how crazy I am. I was looking on the main board and Amy had a message about this board , so I am checking it out. I really needed this !!! I had surgery on March 31, 2004. I lost 86 pounds and I felt so good . I wanted to lose 19 more pounds, but like so many of you , I found out I can eat sugar and now I've gained 13 pounds . I get so mad at myself But I'm just like I was before surgery, I can't stop myself , If I take one bite I go crazy !!! I really need your support, so maybe I'll get back on track . Thanks for listening . Judy

judy...fellow marcher! you are not alone...i lost 70 pounds, my dh almost died and i put back on about 15-18 (depends on time of day! day of week!) and i still wanna get to goal!!! so i am back to needing to lose about 50 pounds....uggggghhhhhhh be my buddy?

Thanks Margo, I will be your buddy. Let's e-mail each other tonight what we have eaten for the day. How is you husband ? I knew he had been sich. I prayed for him and you. Judy

Judy, I can identify with what you are saying. Many years ago, I heard of a person who told a friend that drinking a beer "every once in a while" was not harmful. The man was not aware that his friend was a recovering alcoholic. Apparently, these were just the words he was looking for because before long, his drinking was out of control again. I feel like that alcoholic!! While out to dinner, a friend said that to snack "every once in a while" is acceptable.. we should not deprive ourselves!! She had WLS and I witnessed her eating a delicious sugary treat. I wish I could errace that moment but it is now burned in my brain that it's OK for us to cheat and for most of us, it probably is OK but for me, it's not. I am not sure what "every once in a while" means. Like the alcoholic, I still have "stinking thinking".. my brain is still morbidly obese, it did not switch to become a skinny brain just because my stomach was altered. I understand the struggles and I'm here if you need me. Gina

Thanks for being my friend, when I need it most !! I am like an alcoholic. I've got to learn that one little bite does hurt because it turns into lots of little bites !! Judy

You are definitely not alone. I am almost 2 years out... still 30 pounds from goal and up 4 pounds. I keep thinking about going back to Overeaters Anonymous meetings but haven't made it yet. I feel so divided about complete abstinence from sugar and treating ourselves once in a while. I can see either way working - depends on the person, the cir****tances etc. I just know I do not want food to rule my life and it still does to some degree. We can do this... I don't want to become a statistic of those RNY's *****gain 50% of their weight in 5 years. I still would be better of but I did not go through all this to not achieve my goal. Hang in there! Lucy

Judy, I've had the surgery twice within 18 months and the first time I got within 7 pounds of the century club. This time I am within 4-5 pounds of it. It's just so frustrating! I'm vowing to get on the protein train today for the next 10 days and see if I can't break this cycle! We're all here together and in the same boat needing support. Good luck to you! DeeDee

Hi Judy! So glad you joined us on this board. I too struggle. I still want to eat the wrong things for the wrong reasons. I'm hopping on the protien train starting tomorrow to see if that will help. People who have not gone through what we have just don't understand. A fellow WLS once told me that the fat is like amonster lurking at the door always wanting to get back in. It is so true. But we have gone through to much to allow that monster back in. Good luck.