Reflections
Well, today is my 4th year anniversary from Weight Loss Surgery. Sometimes it feels like it was just yesterday, and at times I feel like I've lived this way for a lifetime. My journey has been awesome. There have been ups and downs along the way, but life in general is so much better. To say that I actually have a life is great.
4 years ago I was pretty immobile. I lived in a state of doing only what absolutely HAD to be done, due to my limitations. My desires were always so much greater. In my head I wanted to be out and running around like others I knew. I wanted to take my dogs for walks and grab the kids and go to the amusement park. I wanted to be able to go out dancing with my husband, or even entertain the thought of going on a cruise. I used to sit in my room and beat myself up for not having a life. I worked at home, only because I didn't have to get dressed and try to squeeze behind the steering wheel of the car. My kids got used to me pulling up to the front of a store, and sending them inside with a $20 to pick up a few things. Major shopping wore me out, laying across the cart pushing my way through all the aisles. The pain of everyday living, both mental and physical was almost too much to bear.
My health, 4 years ago was hell in a handbasket. I deteriorated rapidly in my 30's. High blood pressure, diabetes that was uncontrolled, although I could fool myself and any doctor my playing with the meds, thyroid issues, aches/pains, bone spurs, everytime I went to the doc, it was something new and more pills. I had to sit down to do my dishes, and could barely walk to the mailbox at the end of the driveway. I paid a lawn company to take care of my lawn. I had totally given up on my marriage, didn't have the energy to deal with it, or the honesty to confront it. My oldest child was running wild, and I didn't have the stamina to keep up or stop it.
Fast forward to now. Some issues still exist, but most are gone. I'm still not Beaver Cleavers mother, domestication issues are there, but I can keep my house "lived in" and keep up with my kids, and deal with issues so much better. I'm off all meds except vitamins and thryoid, those are forevers! I still have some aches and pains, but I'm able to deal with them, work them out with exercise versus xrays. My family life still has a few issues, but I'm able to deal with things head on now and not let anything get too far out of control. I'm working outside of the home, and can fit behind the wheel of any car.
I love that I can bounce out of bed, and thrown on shoes and just GO. I can walk the dogs, and even play on a softball team.. ME?? Who'd of thunk it. I can DANCE!
Life is good! 
Wendy
Open RNY 8/31/01
Starting weight 419
Lowest weight 155
Current weight 185
Bounceback of 30 pounds.. but I'm working on it!
Wendy
Open RNY 8/31/01
Starting weight 419
Lowest weight 155
Current weight 185
Bounceback of 30 pounds.. but I'm working on it! 
OMG! Woman... You ROCK
Congrats on your 4th anniversary
Oh... and Happy Re-Birthday;) 
Tracy 
Hey Wendy...congrats! Even though I was a "lightweight" I can relate to so much of your post. Especially the shopping nightmares. My feet hurt so badly that if I went to Walmart....I had to go directly to what I needed...get it and get back to the car.....and that was the only thing I could do that day because my feet would be throbbing. Congrats on your success!
Amanda S VG-DS October 2001
highest >350/342 start of wls journey/154@goal and after ps Most Active
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