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I'm so glad to be in good company with non-perfect people who will admit to it. When I first started this journey I thought everyone was 100% compliant all the time. I find comfort in knowing that others face the same struggles that I do. I made myself post last night that I had kept my vows because I was struggling with wanting to late-night eat too (had to stay up late to snipe an eBay bid!). Once I wrote down that I had done it then the determination kicked in to keep me accountable. Thanks for being here, Jeannie --- I really appreciate knowing you're there trying to make it through each and every day with me! Do well today! DeeDee

Oh, DeeDee I am far from perfect girlfriend. I always want to be real and honest. If I'm not honest with all of you than I'm not being honest with myself. Who would I be fooling? Myself..... It's hard to admit my faults and slips, but it's what I must do to overcome them. We are all walking the same journey. The journey of overcoming a dependency on food. I want to depend on God to meet my emotional needs. I want to be there to encourage others that we can have freedom from this stronghold in our lives if we stop putting our trust in it. We need to eat to live, not live to eat. That is what we have done in the past and are trying with all our might to change. I'm so proud of you for keeping your vows last night. You found a way to beat the urge to graze. It worked for you once it can work for you again. We just really need to put our minds to doing it. Thank you too DeeDee for being here for me and the others that are striving to keep accountable. There is strength in numbers. I plan on doing eceptionaly well today DeeDee. I have my mind made up for today! I know you will too. Jeannie

Funny you should mention stronghold. Today's sermon included a line which I immediately wrote down: "The STRENGTH of a stronghold lies in its SECRECY." If I don't post here and give myself reason to be accountable then I have a tendency to let my eating be "my little secret." It's just before that TOM and I'm desperately wanting salt & sweet right now. I'm sitting here eating a sugar free chocolate pudding with 1-1/2 oz. of banana in it and 1/2 oz. of walnuts. I calculated it in to my days calories and I'm praying that it gives my body the "fix" it needs to get through the rest of the day. If it weren't for this post I would blow it before the night is over but I'm determined to wake up tomorrow and say "yay, I did it!" Before my staple line disruption I was within 7 pounds of the century club. Right now I'm within 4 pounds of being there. We leave Friday for our long trip and right now I want to be down 100 pounds before we start the trip. I'm trying so hard but mother nature is working against me at the moment in every way possible. BUT ... as the quote on my profile states: "You really only want what you are willing to pay for. If the price of attainment is too great for you to pay, you do not desire that particular thing or condition with intensity; hence you do not deserve it." So it's up to me to decide just how badly I want this. Thanks for listening ... posting it just reassures me I can do it! DeeDee