Anniversary Blues??

Do you find yourself blue? miserable? cry at the drop of a hat? just want to crawl away into a hole? I lead a couple support groups and always giving help when needed. Late night phone calls are common, doctor calling and asking questions he doesn't know, so this is a bit different for me and a bit difficult to put out in public forum, but, I've never felt like this before, I've always been happy, never depressed. I was reading the earlier thread about therapy and have never needed it. Have never found myself depressed. Is or could this be related to my upcoming anniversary? Usually things happen in cycles of 3, so I would expect this in year 6 not now.....any thoughts? Darlene (wearing a new suit)

Darlene--I have been wondering about you lately--don't know why, just felt an undercurrent in some of your posts and then you weren't around much. I am sorry you are feeling sad--maybe a visit to the doc is in order? Just wanted to say hugs to you. Hope things improve for you soon.

Lynda, Thanks so much for the hugz....sometimes it's hard to admit you need them...I've not been posting to much to the boards lately, some private emails is about all, picking the threads to reply to with caution. It's hard around here to talk to anyone in my area that would understand what I"m going thru, as I'm my surgeons number 2 patient, and he gets all his info from me...lol Think I just need some time off from work, I am not in a good work environment for a normal person let alone someone like me......the "kill the *****" instinct comes out all the time....I do have an evil twin sister....(I'm an only chilc).... Again, thanks Lynda for the concern... Darlene

"the "kill the *****" instinct comes out all the time....I do have an evil twin sister" Its funny you said that - my staff calls me the evil one and who are you today - the evil twin??.....I have learned to embrace that term and love it. It's was just funny that you say that Val~

Dar, You are sooo giving and always there for assistance for everyone else. You take a lot of heat for your beliefs and you survive. The point I'm making is that being human, we all have needs. You too! Yup, you need encouragement and nurturing as much as you give it........we all do. A part of my "lunacy" in post op recovery has been being literally forced to accept my humanity......I was so impervious to that as a pre op. I had it together and I was formidable. I sooo am not. I'm as wimpy as the next guy........and I need too. I've had to learn to cry for help and ask for assistance. It's been the most humbling walk of my life. It's good to see you here saying ouch, what can I do? Gosh, I respect and admire you. Jeannie

Send me a box of tissue? Dar

Hey, aren't you supose to be working?

Hi Darlene! I haven't heard from you in a while as well..I know your busy but HOW ARE YOU DOIN? I 2nd the post above about feeling the undercurrent...maybe that is why you have been on my mind so heavily lately. I hope all is well! Maybe you have too much on your plate??? Maybe that DOC should give you a JOB doing what your doing for FREE! Sounds like it might be a perfect fit for you! You amaze me when I read about the support groups that you do and the encouragement you give others! HOW BOUT DARLENE? We are HERE FOR YOU! Keep in touch please! Julie

awww Julie, thanks so much....you guys make me have tears again, and I can't do that, I'm tuff..... I haven't posted on our accountabilty list for a few days cause I feel like a failure....(there's a statement my followers can snatch up and run with). Sometimes I feel like I could do the surgery in my sleep, all the seminars I was doing for the doc...lol....now I just do the support groups...... Thanks so much Julie......you and Jeannie and Lynda sure made me feel warm and fuzzy.... Darlene

Darlene.... so sorry you are having a hard time... we all need help and support and it doesnt mean we are not strong... You have alot of great folks to lean on here.... I have been meaning to ask you a question... Do you find that you need that new suit here on this board?? I love reading your posts to by the way and I hope you feel better Kiwani