I WANT TO SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

I FEEL LIKE I AM TOTALLY LOSING CONTROL OVER MY WHOLE BODY, IT SEEMS AFTER ALMOST 4YRS I WOULD BE UNDER COMPLETE CONTROL, I KNOW I AM NOT SUPPOSED TO EAT CERTAIN THINGS AND I KNOW IF I EAT TOO MUCH IT WILL MAKE ME FEEL BAD AND THEN I TELL MYSELF WHY DO I DO IT, THE SWEETS ARE GETTING OUT OF CONTROL AGAIN AND ALL MY GOOD EATING HABITS ARE SLOWLY DISAPPEARING AND I AM FEELING MISERABLE ABOUT IT, I KNOW U PROBABLY HAVE HEARD THIS FROM ME BEFORE BUT I JUST NEEDED TO LET U ALL KNOW SO U COULD BE THINKING ABOUT ME TODAY, kEEP IN TOUCH AND THANKS FOR BEING THERE LOVE YA ALL BRUCE ( I TRULY AM TRYING TO STAY ON TRACK)

((((Bruce)))) I am SO right there with you, though not as far out as you are, I still fully understand. But I realized that beating myself up for it isn't going to do anything but make me want to eat more, so I've accepted the fact that I'm human and am trying to get back on track. Fortunately I haven't gained through all this, just stayed stable. Hang in there, forgive yourself your transgressions, take a deep breath and do your best to get back on track. Look at how far you've come. Hugs and good thoughts... Fanny

oh do I hear you! Whenever I gain a few pounds, I put a sign on front of the refrigerator door with whatever I've gained. Makes you stop and think. You CAN do it!

Hi Bruce, I feel your pain man. I really do. I feared I would struggle w/overeating again and weight gain too but not too long ago, I lost too much weight and was told to regain 20Lbs. and I am struggling now trying to get the extra 7Lbs. I didn't want to regain off. (if you want to know what caused me to lose too much you can read my profile) Anyway it's back to basics for me. I am pasting my reply to a post a few days ago on this board. Hope it helps. And know that you are thought of today and are in my prayers. You can beat this and get back on track Bruce. Want it bad enough to give up whatever you have to that gets you in trouble if that is what it will take. Everyone is different, but for me, that is what I have to do. Take care and hang in there my new friend. RE: Do you eat sweets? Response from Jeannie Boyer at 7:53 AM PST on 08/10/2005 Kissimmee, FL - RNY (07/08/2003) Hi Michelle, Great topic! Before my WLS my main addiction was to sweets so I made my mind up that after WLS I wouldn't eat it for fear it would cause my addiction to flare up again. Well, I was good for almost 2 years and then I tried some. First mistake was to have that first bite. I was into my addiction once again for about 3 weeks. I prayed to God to help me once again! I made a decision that it isn't worth it. Sugar is like POISION to me. I don't know why I thought the addiction wouldn't come back. Addiction is addiction. I'm thankful it was only a 3 week binge and not 3 years! I do have some s/f stuff once in awhile. They give me bad gas so I try to limit myself. I also have come to the conclusion that I have to give up the other snacks too, like chips etc. I'm addicted to them too. Geez, I wish they could have fixed our emotions. As they say, they fixed our stomachs not our heads. I have a lifetime of on going work to do. All in all, I rather give this stuff up then have to be always concerned w/weight gain and the way all those carbs make me feel. It's not always easy but w/the support of OH and my support group, I WILL overcome! Best to eveyone who struggles w/this addiction. Your Gastric Buddy, Jeannie Lap RNY 7-8-03 290/145 PS Oct.of 04 and more to come!

Jeannie!! OMG - HiJack! You look Fabulous!!! My PC crashed and I lost your email address. How are things? I missed you! ~Val~

Bruce, We had surgery around the same date. You my friend, are not alone! I had to recently make an evaluation of what I was doing and decided to get my A$$ back on track! Today two eople said you are getting slimmer. I (inside) wanted to cry.... I am watching my carbs and trying like heck to be a good girl. Time will tell and I am human. If you ever need to chat or anything feel free to email me. You don';t have to do this alone. You have a wonderful group here that provides so much inspiration and support. It is an uphill battle but one that can be won! Val~

Hi Bruce--Don't scream please I have a headache LOL. I am right there with ya buddy. I am struggling too. It is so much easier to eat the bad stuff. I am working really hard to get back on track. Glad you have been able to stay on track and are just fighting to stay on. Again--no advice--just wanted to let you know I feel your struggle.

Hi Bruce. My only 2 cents worth is this. Every morning I get up and start off the first day of the rest of my life. I start with the notion that it will be a good one, that I have planned for, that I will stay within the parameters. I carry out my daily chores, and sometimes I stray off the path, and other times I don't. When I do stray, or stray too much, I remind myself that tomorrow morning I will start the first day of the rest of my life, and part of today is already gone, so there is no need to sulk about it. The next morning, I once again get up, start the first day of the rest of my life, and so on and so on and so on. At 2+ years out I have managed to keep my loses (Thank Goodness) by following this way of looking at life. BUT, it has not been without a struggle. Be kind to yourself, you have accomplished so much. Tomorrow is the first day of the rest of your life, and you will MAKE IT, just like I do, everyday, placing one foot in front of the other, one step at a time. You can and will do it, I KNOW IT. Hugs to you, Missy

I just stopped by to offer some support and encouragement. You can and will get yourself back on track! I am thinking of you and wishing for the BEST! Hugs and happiness, Tammy

Have you seen a therapist who deals with food issues? Being this far out and still having a problem with food and eating and the guilt that goes along with it would tell me that I need some extra help. There are many therapists who deal with food issues and help wls patients. Some of us can't do it alone - all the good intentions in the world won't help when your eating is out of control or heading that way. There is a reason we were obese to begin with - we can't control our eating or food cravings. There's nothing wrong with getting some help, and for many it's the only way to remain successful after wls. See your doctor for a referral or find out who in your area would be a good therapist for a post op wls patient. It really makes a difference when you're in control again. Good luck.