Do you wrongly feel super fat still?
So I am nearly four years out. I lost about 190 lbs and kept off all but 10. I have been depressed for a long time. Since my surgery I have divorced, remarried, and was widowed all within 6 weeks. That was about a year and a half ago. I only found out I am still down 180 lbs when I was hospitalized for an unrelated medical condition. This depression caused me to believe I was 250 lbs and since I work from home I never put real clothes on (just my late husband's size 3x tee shirts and stretchy shorts) so I didn't realize my size 8 jeans fit fine and my size 6 jeans still fit though a little tight. Has anyone else developed this type of body dysmorphia? If so, how did you get past it?
I still feel fat even though I way 125. I am struggling to lose the last 10 pounds. I am sorry for your suffering and will pray for you. Please find a counselor to talk to especially since you admitted to being depressed for a long time. This is too much for your mind to bear. Your mind is playing tricks on you about your weight so you need to deal with that by wearing your own clothes. But you obviously want to be close to your deceased husband by wearing his clothes. These are strictly my opinions but you might need an antidepressant to guide your mind down the right path since you went through so much so fast while dealing with your weight lose.
I went from a 22 to a 12 so far. I still think I am a 22 or 26. I feel weird wearing form-fitting clothes. In fact, the pants are driving me crazy. I see a counselor and told her I still look exactly the same as 55-60 pounds ago to me. She said it takes time. The funny thing is I thought I was obese when I was 10 pounds overweight. I look at photos and say "Wow. I should have taken more photos. I wasn't fat then!"