Thursday and Friday Accountability

Catch up.  So glad the week is over.  Things are going pretty well but feeling a little off.  Obsessed with food and freaked about weight and body size.  I am smaller than I have ever been in my adult life.  I am in what I would assume would be maintenance and I have never maintained ever.  Don't know how to do it.  I have lost, been at a weight for a moment and then rapidly gained it all back.  Over the last 6 months I had a regain of 20 pounds, lost that, went under what I thought was my lowest and now seemed to have leveled off.  I like where I am at but am questioning everything I put in my mouth.  The way I am eating is not radically different than what I have been eating all along, but the obsession is there and that is not a good thing.  Any feedback from longtimers on this would be greatly appreciated.  

Thursdays food:

32oz water and am vitamins

B: 1/2 cup 2% cottage cheese, 14 almonds, 5 prunes, 2 tbsp golden ground flaxseed

Coffee w/sugar free, non-dairy creamer

L:  1 cup split pea/ham soup, apple

32oz water and pm vitamins

S: Atkins protein bar

D: Flatout flatbread, 1/4 cup garlic cooking creme, 6 oz chicken breast, 2 slices havarti

S: 1 slice protein bread, 2.25oz pumpkin seeds

Cals: 1774, fat: 79.5, carbs: 118.5, protein: 125.75

Fridays Food:

32oz water and am vitamins

B: Pure Protein Peanut Butter Choco Bar

Coffee w/sugar free, non-dairy creamer

L: 3oz ground been patty w/rice/sundried tomato/onions mixed in, mixed greens, corn, green peas, shredded carrots, garbanzo beans, broccoli, sunflower seeds, shredded cheese, ranch dressing

32oz water and pm vitamins

Coffee w/sugar free non-dairy creamer

D: 2 slices protein bread, 2 slices ham, 2 slices havarti, 2 tbsp cream cheese

S: 2.25oz pumpkin seeds

Cals: 1772, fat: 112, carbs: 68, protein: 112

That's it for tonight.  Hope you all had a good one :)