Accountability Monday
I was obsessed with food this weekend. Especially Sunday. I didn't go nuts, but I didn't do great. Saturday was fine. I spent the day busy, had lots to do, stayed out of the house the majority of the day. Went to dinner Saturday night and that is when it started. I don't drink and I don't really like crowded drunk places and that's where we went with some people that my husband knows for some bands my husband wanted to see. We both knew I wasn't going to stay. I planned out what I was going to eat. Things were okay once we got seated but then the chips/salsa came, and one of the women in our party was particularly drunk and obnoxious and I started in on the chips/salsa/guacamole. On Sunday it was like I spent the day waiting for each meal. I didn't stick to my plan and kept changing it through the day. I am in OA and will call other members if I am having a bad day/craving/etc . and I just wouldn't pick up that phone. I knew I should call someone, my sponsor and I wouldn't. Anyway, yesterday was a little better but only slightly. I really do better when my plan is set, I stick to it and I reach out for help.
Here is Monday's food:
32oz water and am vitamins
B: 1/2 cup 2% cottage cheese, 14 almonds, 5 prunes, 2 tbsp golden ground flaxseed
Coffee w/sugar free non-dairy creamer
L: 1 cup split pea/ham soup, 1 slice protein bread, 1 slice havarti
32oz water and pm vitamins
S: Atkins protein bar
D: 3oz chicken, 1/4 cup roasted potatoes
S: 1 slice protein bread, 1/2 tbsp butter, Pure Protein Choco Deluxe Bar
Cals: 1652.5, fat: 69.5, Carbs: 120, Protein: 118
I have a plan for today and am going to an OA meeting. It also helps me to account for everything here for some reason. It's almost like confessional. Go figure...
Here's to never forgetting where I came from so I never have to return...