9 years 2 months 11 days ago I was reborn

 But I'm here today to find the support I need to gain the upper hand on my weight gain. I'm depressed and I know it. I have gone through a divorce, lost a granddaughter to SIDS, lost my job of 21 years and moved from AZ to NM after 46 years. Life is so different and I've let myself go to the point of not being able to look in the mirror. Granted I'm still not 303#'s but it's getting closer. Because of my depression I'm locked in the house day after day. I get up go to work and come home and sit on my butt. I don't want to cook so there for am back to fast food and quick fixes. My daughter showed me pics of me in Feb 2007 she said I looked like an Ethiopian kid because I was so skinny. I don't want to be that small again but a good 50 pounds from here would be great. I figure coming back to this site and reading all I can about others experiences will help. I brought up my journal from so long ago and read through most of it. I stopped coming after I lost my granddaughter and I think it was my undoing.

I started the 5DPT today and I've had a rough afternoon. I've had 2 protein shakes some cream of chicken soup and at 46 ounces of water. That's about 46 more then the last 5 years so I'm feeling accomplished. 

Sending angels to lift you up no matter where you are in your journey!

 Hi Terri!  I amglad you posted and hope you decide to join us in the accountability thread.  It has helped me so much to come here daily/nightly and post what I have eaten.  I also plan and track in writing what I am going to eat and what the calories/fats/carbs and proteins are fod those foods.  I am almost 3 years out which is pretty much a newcomer but I have had some re-gain which I have lost.  The planning, tracking and posting has been so helpful.  I have also done a lot of therapy and gone back to Overeaters Anonymous (I am a compulsive overeater and if you want to know more about that send me a PM and I would be happy to talk to you about it)

Anyway, keep coming back, post account and share.  We do not do this alone!

Hi Terri,

I'm sorry about all your troubles. You've come to a good place to reach out for help. Prayers and happy thoughts sent to you.

 Thanks ladies... I'm tracking my protein intake and continuing to drink water. I have cut way back on the carbs which I know was my downfall. After two days of the 5DPT it was nice to have some solids today. I actually went shopping to 4 different stores tonight after work which was a big step. I have Fibromyalgia and in a pretty good flare due to the weather. But I'm pushing through.

Thanks again! I'll be coming back for sure!

 I just want you to know I remember you and I am happy to see you!  This is a struggle but what a blessing it is to so many.  I haven't been on here for a very long time and tonight, I decided to see if I remembered anyone.  There you were.  Remember how we felt when we first lost the weight and the freedom it gave us.  Try to remember that feeling and free yourself from some of your painful fibro and depression.  I will be praying for you!  Xox Hugs. 

 Christina, yes I remember you. There are so many people I think about and wonder how they have done. I know in the begining I was so affraid because I did not have access to a support group and all the people I met on here where more then enough support. I have had a much better week just making myself accountable for everything I have eaten. Even though I enjoyed a couple of things I made sure I knew what it could potentially lead to. I have increased my protein been drinking my water and the 5 pounds I have lost is a starting point. Thanks for the prayers, I can always use them. 

God Bless!