Accountability=Wednesda

Today was a really tough day..really stressful..but bless my hubby, he offered to take me out to dinner and a margarita..and I surely needed it..so if I don't type quite right..that is why..

Again, I didn't even keep track of my eats on fitday..I had to remember what I ate and post it just now..good thing I didn't eat much today..I was so busy and so disgusted with the world that I didn't trust myself even eating..booo for that.


coffee

1/4 p waffle and small nectarine and sf pancake syrup

double espresso latte

herb tea..I didn't even drink half of it on the way to work. I had a before work meeting with an administrator and completely forgot!

I also forgot to pack my snacks..booo for that too..

24 oz drink mix with ice I forget what flavor

lunch (yup, no water for most of the water) 1 chicken marinara patty with 4 oz chicken breast..

24 oz drink mix, no ice but caffeinated

the only snack I had was a flour tortilla with peanut butter.. then I left for my physicaly therapy


24 oz drink mix non-caffeinated

24 oz drink mix non-caffieinated

dinner: a chicken burrito (well, half of it but it was big so I'm counting it as a whole one) and a margarita..only barely half of one but they're large too so I counted it as a whole one..

Totals for the day:
Calories: 1631
Fat: 68.4
Carbs: 109.7
Protein: 98.5

Not too bad for a day that I needed a margarita..I'm okay with it. With the day I had, I could ahve gotten **** faced and had to throw up..it was a horrible day!

How did you do> 

 I'm sorry you had a bad day, but thank God your husband took you out to dinner.  Sounds like you needed it woman!  I hope it gets better tomorrow and hey, you made it through, it's over...

Here is my food for today:

32 oz water and am vitamins
B:  1/2 cup 2% cottage cheese, 14 almonds, 5 prunes, 2 tbsp golden ground flaxseed, 1/2 tbsp stevia
Starbucks iced venti sugar free vanilla 2% latte
L:  4-5 oz chicken tenderloin, 2 tbsp peanut satay sauce
32oz water and pm vitamins
S:  Pure Protein Choco Deluxe Protein Bar
Starbucks iced grande sugar free vanilla 2% latte
D:  Starbucks reduced fat turkey bacon/egg white/cheddar cheese breakfast sandwich on whole wheat english muffin
16 oz diet peach snapple

Cals:  1435, Fat:  44.5, Carbs:  124, Protein:  118

I feel good about these numbers and what is going on in general with my food.  I decided today I am going to stop weighing myself everyday.  I realized that when it is good I rationalize eating more than I need.  So I'm not going to weigh myself.  I haven't figured out how often I should weigh and Dawn maybe you can tell me what you think about that.  Anyway, I feel good.  A little hungry and my head hurts a little but I am thinking it is just my body giving up some of the crap I had been eating.

I weighed every day for the longest time..And I had to come to terms with the number on the scale. I was happy and in a good mood if the number went down and could chew nails if it was up even alittle. The problem wasn't the number but MY attitude toward the number..The way I handle it now is that when it's increased just from one morning to the next, it's got to be that I ate salty things..not too many salty things but any salty things..I think about what I ate the previous day and can justify the why.

Like today, if I weigh myself, I will see that the salt on the rim of the margarita and the tortilla chips that I ate last night will have me up over 132. I've been weighing every couple of days now and sometimes only weekly and I've gained some. I was barely able to hold myself at 128 and was eating more and more and the scale wasn't moving..now it's jumped up over 130 and it feels harder to effect that number.

Still, I have a hard time remembering it's only a number. It's not my worth, it's not my attitude meter..it's just a random (well, not exactly random) number..

If you do weigh every day, you have to be careful about your perception of the number. Hell, I was weighing naked, after I go to the restroom in the morning; after I got dressed; before and after I had a bowel movement..and then naked before I went to bed..In any day, my weight fluctuates 4 or 5 pounds..which was a facinating fact to me..I guess I desensitized my self!

 Thanks, that helps.  It is my attitude.  I know for sure I won't be weighing daily anymore.  I am thinking about weekly.  We shall see.  See you tonight :)