Accountability - Thursday

I didn't do really well, but I didn't do really bad..I forgot to send y eats and times home from work..it was a really rotten day at work.

This is my eats as I remember them:

breakfast was a cup of coffee and breakfast of protein waffles like normal

then a double espresso latte plain soy milk

24 oz herb tea

1 oz mozzarella cheese and turkey breast deli meat

24 oz drink mix with ice,

24 oz drink mix with ice, caffeinated

part of my lunch: 4 oz corned beef, 1 cup cooked green beans

24 oz drink mix with ice, caffeinated

24 oz drink mix with the rest of the ice,

24 oz drink mix with ice

1/2 small apple when I got home and 1/2 oz honey roasted peanuts

then 1/4 of a 16" meat pizza with thin crust..

Totals for the day: 
Calories: 1818
Fat: 100.0
Carbs: 134.1
Protein: 103.1

I would have done much better without the pizza but..after the day i had? I deserve carbs..But they made me really really tired..and they skewed my numbers really bad..

How did you do?

I get it 100% on the rotten day... while mine wasnt totally rotten - my dad did come home today & unfortuantely he wasnt able to make it up the stairs when we got home as i had hoped. That God my brother was here to help me carry my dad up the stairs in his wheelchair (something i swore i would never ever do again... here i am... once again...). He's just too weak. My heart is actually heart & my eyes were filled w/ tears, but nothing came out. I became totally depressed as the reality set in that he really cant live on his own, as we planned & turht be told - i really dont know how much longer he'll last. Hes just so weak & they get that way when its near. Hes functional & i know in my heart that he's trying his best - but hes just so weak. I now (again) live with the fear of seeing him not wake up when i call to him.

my eats - its a 2 bottle night... im just sayin...
breakfast -
6oz FF Yogurt
24oz coffee
16oz tea

Snack -
LT cheese stick
20oz CL

Lunch -
1c Ham & 15 bean soup
20oz water

Snack -
2 oz tuna
10 crackers
LF string cheese
20oz water

DInner -
3oz Mediterranean Style Garlic Shrimp, Penne & Cherry Tomatoes

Totals -
Cals: 1056
Carbs: 99
Protein: 105
Fat: 27

It's a very hard thing for us to lose our parents because more often than not it's over a period of time and it's just PAINFUL..You love your father, that's evident..Some parents aren't so lucky.. I wish I had more time with my dad. I wish he'd have had to live with me but then I'm glad he didn't..It's really a conflicting thing. I was dismayed to see how worn out my aunt and my cousins were when my grandfatther lived with them..the kids seemed rather bitter that his care interferred with their lives..Seriously, dear. Find your peace where you can. It's a pleasure and a burden to have to take care of your parent..or anyone. Death is a fact of life and if you're making the last portion of your dad's life even alittle better, you get a special place in heaven, in my mind..BLESS YOU.

On the foods day you did great..you have it down pat! Don't let your obligations outside of your own health take the wind out of your sails..Your health first and then you will have the strength for all that you are doing..and ask for help. Your son, the church, other siblings..they won't help if they don't know you need it..

Keep up the good work. and again BLESS YOU!