Accountability - Tuesday

Didn't get up early today...but I still managed to take my vitamins..I've actually been doing really good for the last four or five days..except that pesky B-12..May have to readjust...My son went to take his driver's test..didn't pass but it's a start. Poor kid, he was so nervous! Soon though...very soon, he'll be free and on the highways..(be afraid! LOL) 
 
My eats today:  
5:30 am 12 oz coffee w/NSA Swiss Miss  
6:00 am 1/4 super protein waffle, 5 medium strawberries, 1/2 sf pancake syrup (Biotin, Multi, Fish Oil, D3, Glucosamine, Turmeric)  
7:00 am double espresso latte, frothed soy milk and splenda (with extra coffee)  
8:00 am 24 oz herb tea, Bigelow Vanilla with splenda  
9:00 am 1oz mozzarella cheese, 1 pc turkey breast deli meat (Calcium Citrate, Calcium Carbonate and D3)  
10:30 am 24 oz drink mix with ice, Mio Strawberry  
11:00 am 4 broccoli flowerettes, 2 caulifloweretts and 1 oz cheese sauce  
12:00 pm 12 oz decaf with half n half and splenda  
12:45 pm 4 oz turkey pastrami on rye bread with 2 slices processed cheese and mustard (turmeric and B-12)  
1:30 pm 24 oz drink mix with ice, GV Pomgranate Lemonade Caffeinated  
2:30 pm 24 oz drink mix with ice, GV Strawberry

4:00 pm sugar free cookies  
6:00 pm Banquet Meatballs and Marinara over left over french fries

Totals for the day:
Calories: 1507
Fat: 74.5
Carbs: 114.0
Protein: 100.3

Not actually too bad. If I had kept away from the cookies, I'd have been alright..but things generally fell apart when I got home.. The printer that got new cartridges last week isn't working (because someone didn't know how to align the cartridges and didn't even read the instructions...just sayin). and dinner didn't get cooked until nearly 6 pm (because said person was flitting around about the printer..not my fault blah blah.) I need to do our taxes but because I can't print the forms..it's not happenin anytime soon..sigh..yeah, those were stress cookies. On a good tone, I asked for seven vacation days spread out from March to the end of May..

How did you do? 

 

Your poor son. Although I failed my driver's test three times before I finally passed. My parents were at their wits end. They were so tired of carting me around. Yeah for the vacation days! There is nothing like knowing you have some time off coming to keep you going.

My food for Tuesday:

B: 1/2 cup 2% cottage cheese, 2 tbsp ground golden flaxseed, 14 almonds, 5 prunes, 1 packet Stevia
Starbucks iced venti sugar free vanilla 2% latte
23.7 oz water
L: 1/2 cup brown rice, italian sausage, 1 tbsp butter, mushrooms/onions, 1/4 cup roasted garlic alfredo
16.9 oz water
S: fuji apple w/1 tbsp peanut butter
D: 2 slices protein bread, chicken patty, 2 slices cheddar cheese, 1 tbsp onion/chive cream cheese, 1 tbsp mayonaisse
16 oz diet peach snapple
S: 2.25 oz pumpkin seeds, 34 grams sugar free white chocolate bar

Okay extra slice of cheddar and mayo. Compulsive. Not necessary. Weighed and up to 199, however am on my period, so bloated. I am really torn at trusting weather or not I am okay with my food. I feel like I am being conscious about what I am putting in my mouth and am aware of when I go that one step beyond, but am also spent a lifetime of fooling myself. I also find that when I am not what I consider to be perfect I don't want to post. Which is why I was late. Which is why I need to post. Mental much Leslie???

Anyway, there you have it. Portrait of a food addict. Doing the best I can. It doesn't suck. Glad you are here Dawn and that you keep showing up. And that you seem to be pretty level headed. Again I say I am grateful for you...

Yeah, that extra one pound can't be from what you ate..maybe from bloat..maybe from a stray bit of salt and extra water..Still, water is good for you and will flush that salt right out..

I know exactly what you mean about not wanting to post when you feel you aren't perfect..but be gentle with yourself..Don't beat yourself up. If you were talking to another person, you would be more encouraging than if you were speaking to yourself and that's not right..You just need to keep trying..You aren't a failure if you keep trying. You ARE a failure if you quit trying..

Being conscious of what is going in your mouth is a really good thing and really good practice. Dont' worry about being obsessive about it..it's practice..The more you practice, the more natural it will become.

I got so obsessive about posting my foods and calculating my protein and carbs that taking a vacation away from it nearly killed me! Hubby and I went on a cruise to Ensenada (through my work, it was really cheap) but the internet was so much money, we couldn't afford it so I couldn't do it for five days..I was so worried that I was going to gain weight..But I kept following the rules and ate protein first..eyeballing the servings, no drinking with meals..good carbs, no bread..We did alot of walking but it felt like we were eating all day long! Ya know, after that five days I weighed myself and I'd LOST weight..

It's funny that you call me level headed..It's one of the main things I remember my mom saying about me..I remember very few things that she said to me about me cuz I was 10 when she went into the convalescent hospital and I only saw her every Sunday after that..and then she died right after I turned 16..I tend to over think things but that's pretty much the same as SEEMING level headed..Obsessive, over thinking, ... It works for me.