Accountability - Wednesday

Getting back into the swing of things, I hope..At least the day started out good. The only thing wrong with today is that the tech people at my work haven't been able to fix my laptop..I think there may be a new laptop in my future..or I break down and ask my brother to fix it..I hate when that happens.
 
6:00 am 1/4 serving protein waffles, 1/2 medium apple, 1/3 serving sf pancake syrup
 
6:30 am 12 oz coffee w/NSA Swiss Miss
 
7:00 am 24 oz Blueberry Herb Tea
 
8:00 am 12 oz coffee w/NSA Swiss Miss
 
8:45 am 24 oz Drink Mix with Ice, Lipton Peach Tea (this is seriously helping with occasional hot flashes!)
 
10:00 am 1/2 cup cooked cabbage leftovers
 
11:30 am 1 small taco: 2 oz meat, 1 medium corn tortilla, 1/2 oz cheddar cheese
 
12:30 pm 24 oz Drink Mix, with ice Hawaiian Punch Orange
 
1:30 pm 1 small taco: 2 oz meat, 1 medium corn tortilla, 1/2 oz cheddar cheese, 10 cherry tomatoes with ranch dressing
 
2:15 pm 24 oz Drink Mix with ice, Morning Spark Grapefruit Caffeinated
 
4:15 pm 24 oz Drink Mix with Ice, Lipton Peach Tea

6:00 pm 2 salisbury steak patties in cheese sauce with 1/2 cup green beans and abour 1/3 cup mashed potatoes and 1/2 T margarine..

 I think I'll have dessert too..a single serving of kettle corn popcorn..yeah, that will do it.

Totals for the day:

Calories: 1493
Fat: 77.7
Carbs: 130.60
Protein: 81.3

Wow...a pretty carby day for me..and low protein too. Still adjusting from being off for over 2 weeks, I guess. I will probably have a horrible time when I retire, is all I can think! Again, tomorrow I get do-overs..and I'm gonna need 'em..

If I have the popcorn now, I can have herb tea before bed...I think I'll do that!

How did you do? 

Sometimes I have a really slow learing curve... It has just occured to me that people actually post AFTER I post.. and that I need to go back and read if I want to keep up with everyone... I feel like Forest Gump..stupid is as stupid does..

I was quite alarmed when I read Anita's post about Arnot Bariatrics closing..that's where my doctors are and where I had my surgery done. Even though I had moved away after the surgery, I traveled back north to them for my appointments. They are a terrific group.

Dawn, I read your posts for yesterday and found a line soooo good that I have to reprint it here.

..I'm totally convinced that white sugar is as evil as crack for some of us (definitely me!)

You nailed it..it is definitely a demon in my life and one I still hope to exorcise.

Today:
noon pita pizza and pinapple (I know what you're thinking: 'this woman must own stock in a pinapple drying factory in Hawaii.' actually, I don't..it's just an addiction..)
1pm protein drink (I did consider trying to buy stock in my protein company...)
3pm protein bar
6pm meal with my BFF. hotdog, 1/2 roll and salad
6-10pm a variety of the demon mentioned above...white sugar in various forms.
8pm 3/4 cup ziti
10pm 1oz cheese

Today's totals:
calories: 1595
protein: 81 grams

a lot of fluids and all vitamins

enjoyed the tattoo update.

Your post made me laugh right out loud! Sometimes I have those moments where I slap my forehead and wonder why didn't I think or notice or do...you know..

I'm reading a book called "Eat it Up" by Connie Stapleton and it's all about how we definitely do have addictions. at least I do..I'm a sugar addict and unless i treat it seriously (like crack or alcohol) I won't over come it. I can over come it and for the most part I've been clean for 4 years but it's still there..still calling to me..and all i takes is one little cookie or candy..and I'll be walking hand in hand with that demon again..Some people can do things in moderation but I just can't. I function better as a recovering addict..

I love dried fruit but I had such a bad reaction to it early out I put the dehydrator away..I'm thinking your dried pineapple sounds so good, the next time the fresh are on sale, I'll drag the dehydrator out and give it another try..If I don't add sugar to them, they should be better, right? I dried papaya and mango last time (two years ago) but didn't like it much...came out like fruit leather instead..

 
hi dawn,

well it dont seem like i ate much. but i had all 3 meals and no snacks.
my bf didnt want to go to olive garden, he has never been there and he said he needed a shower and he was tired and grumpy. mainly to me . we went to Charley's subs. i said well i used to just eat the meat and stuff in the sub and he got very angry about that. ohh you can eat anything u want u just have to exercise he said. sometimes i just wish he would leave me a lone and let me do what i want to do. like i told him last night. i am trying to eat right and limit my carbs. he finally said well we will stop getting whole milk and get 2% milk.. men.... grrr...
i would do fit day again but its just a pain sometimes. 


B- 1 market pantry packet lower sugar maple and brown sugar
1/2 c. 2% milk

L- 1 1/2 c. chili
1 corn muffin

D- Charley's philly steak deluxe - i had half of the half.. so still have some for lunch today.
1 1/2 pieces of chedder bacon fries - these was my bf's .. 

3 cups coffee
40 oz. water
16 oz diet pepsi - from charley's.

It sounds like he really isn't supportive. I don't think he understands the addiction part of it.. or maybe if you let him know that when you eat bread you get the most horrible gas, he'll start to understand..Your system just doesn't deal with carbs the way it used to. If you feel like a really eye opening read, I can highly recommend some books: "Eat it Up" by Connie Stapleton and "It aint over till the thin lady sings" by Michelle Richie..oh, and "Gastric Bypass Surgery, the Psychological Journey" by Ranesa McNally..Eat it up is a real eye opener about how we become addicted and how we can losen the grip of it..awesome stuff. The first three chapters are making me cry..she totally gets me! 

You really didn't have a good day..Don't let anyone push you into eating stuff you don't wanna eat. It's borderline abusive, not letting you eat what you want or need.

Keep trying..keep after it. You did really good otherwise so hold your head up for that..You are worth it! You're worth it in God's eyes!

See ya.

 hi dawn,
no he isnt very supportive in any way.. even with the bills.. i had shut off notices for both cable and gas and electric. sometimes i just want to cry.. and i do...  now he says my sugar levels drop since i am making too much insult. i have no idea. i dont know much about it.  i will have to look for those books. my dr said to eat a dixie cup of food. i am so confused. but i am trying to eat right with what i have in the house. food is low here. saturday we are going food shopping since i get my food stamps. i know he is going to say oh why you getting this or that..  see i need all the support i can get with him here. he has gained too but i dont b- about him gaining..  oh well i need to stop the tears..  anita

The reason you make too much insulin is that you aren't the size you used to be and that's correct..but you can do something about it by NOT eating the white carbs..The blood sugar drop is caused by too many junky carbs and not enough protein or fiber with them. Leave the bread alone and you'll be much better..

Low blood sugar will also cause confusion..Look for terms like Reactive Hypoglycemia on line and find the best things for you to eat before you buy groceries. If he wants the junk, let him buy it..

Deary, I don't think he understands as much as he thinks he does..that's sad.

I would be missing my laptop too! Hope it can be fixed! I did make it ti the gym twice! I will have to try that recipe for protein bars. I like to cook and bake on the weekends. I ran on the TM at the Y before work and rode the stationary bike while reading magazines after work while DD was in dance class. The toning class i wanted to try has been cancelled! I ate 200 calories yesterday! I think it was hormones I don't have periods because of an ablation 4 years ago but I noticed alot of "hag" hairs sprouted over night on my chin and I have been a bit edgy! I am going to really watch it today!
0730-egg beater omellette and 1/2 pbj on wheat- I felt so hungry
1000-other half of PBJ-it was calling to me
1230-pot roast, 1/2 c mashed taters, and steamed grean beans and 1/2 cup NSA applesauce
1500-rf string cheese and 2 small mandarin oranges
1730-hamburger patty with cheese on a bagel thin- Pre Y - mistake; I was too full to do anything other than ride the bike!
2030-scrambled eggs, bacon and 1/2 bagel thin
2200-graham crackers-4
All my water and such! I burned around 500-600 calories but 2000 is still way too much! 2 dinners; what was I thinking?

Today is a do over day and I am not going to dwell on it any longer!

Mary
 

I got the word several weeks ago that I'm officially post menopausal..woo hoo. No more need for birthcontrol pills..I'm one happy camper so any of those hag hairs come around, I'm okay with it (heck, I figure I was probably born with a bush on my chin and lip!)

I'm sure you meant 200 carbs and not calories. You'd be starving yourself to death! LOL..

I'm not sure she can fix the laptop at all. The bootmanager (whatever that is) is removed and she can't find a way around it from Gateway..crap..I don't know that I have any of the disks that the thing came with..shoot..

You're doing awesome..Keep up the good work. See ya.

I had a great day yesterday!  I feel so much better mentally and physically.  I'm hanging in there...
B oatmeal
B Yogurt w/blueberries.  I usually only have the oatmeal but was still hungry so I planned around it.
S yogurt
D Tilapia, B spud
Popcorn
Total Calories = 632, Fat 8, Carbs 98, Protein 44.

Not enough protein I need to focus on that.

And Anita - dump the bf, he isn't good for you.